It's hard when I'm always the dumb one, even though I know I'm plenty smart.
I get confused,
While you pick things up like lyrics to a song.
You're beautiful,
And funny,
And perfect.
Always so fucking perfect.
It makes me want to scream.
I don't want to be like you-
Despite the love I hold for you.
Red hair,
Dumb laugh,
Cold hands,
That's me. I don't want to lose myself.
I just wish that for once in my life
It was good enough.
I hate hearing the things that come out of my mouth,
The dumb jokes,
When I get flustered and talk too fast,
And the words get caught in my mouth.
God I sound like an idiot.
A big, fucking, loser.
Oh well.
It's who I am right?
Too bad,
I swear
I could've been so much better.
