A happy ending?

I don't want to live anymore

'I don't want to live anymore'

I keep saying repeatedly as I walk towards the edge of the roof, it's like an unknown force telling me to move straight towards the edge of the roof. My body, it seems lifeless.

My body falls on the floor of the roof just like a puppet when a person drops its strings, what else it's supposed to act like? We are all puppets who cannot even move an inch unless the master wants to play.

My lifeless eyes are filled with questions. Questions for someone who I have believed in my whole life

- 'Why?'

I cried to the empty sky knowing I'll never get an answer.

But what else can I do? There's no other way I can escape this misery, my life.

I can't escape neither can anyone else, we have to live through this hell.

Minutes later I saw someone walking towards me. I try to focus but I can't my vision is too blurry. But I think it's him. Who else could it be? I want to get up and run towards him straight into his arms so I somehow lift up my body and try to reach him.

Seeing him again made me smile like an infant, so pure, so full of love. It's been months since I have last smiled.

Suddenly, very suddenly my vision started to fade away followed by my mother's voice. I was confused. And then, a tap on my shoulder woke me up. I looked around and murmured:

- So it was all a dream?

- Sorry? Mom said.

- Umm nothing.

- 'ok but get up and get ready for your university it's your first day after the break'

- 'I don't want to go to the university'

- 'Lying in bed all day and crying is not a solution to this problem. Get up and get your life together. We're all sailing the same boat. There's no way but to face it with all our strength.'

With that she left as she closed the door behind her. I got up from my bed and reach the closet to get ready.

Walking towards the university I am thinking about all the twists and turns my life has taken in the past months and how I am going to explain my friends everything. To be honest I don't even want to talk to them or anyone else. But I have to that's what university is all about putting yourself in such situations that can make the life more miserable as if it is not miserable enough at the first place.

Standing outside my class I took a deep breath and prepared myself to face my friends and their questions.

I walk in and saw my friend's face even though I didn't even wanted to talk to her but looking at her gave me a strange unexpected relief.

- ' !! Where have you been all summer?' – fariha

- 'hell' I murmured

- 'sorry what?' – fariha

- 'nothing, where's our bench?' I ask her so I can sit in peace.

- 'at the last bench obviously that's where all the cool kids sit' - fariha

Her poor sense of humor puts a smile on my face every time so with a little smile on my face I walk towards my bench.

I stop in front of the bench for a moment and turn towards fariha

- 'who's this guy?'

- 'umm....it's...

- 'her boyfriend' - the guy on my seat answered.

I give fariha a confused look demanding an explanation. She knows I promote breakups and that is why she is not speaking up.

- 'come on fari I am not gonna kill you just because you are in a relationship'

- 'You like him?' – asks fariha hoping that I'll not snap at her already for not telling me about her boyfriend

- 'It's too early to make a statement'

I sound like a strict parent but that's what best friends are for. They are your crime partners but act as a parent when it comes to relationships they are like your third parent in this case unless you make your boyfriend your third parent who has all the rights to put all kind of restrictions on you.

I try to act like a strict friend but deep down I know such friends are annoying but I just want to show that I care for her. That's because I just realized how important some relations are in life and equally important is showing your affection towards them before it's too late.

- 'I don't know what it is but there's something that makes me a little uncomfortable about your boyfriend fari.'

- 'You always say the same thing every single time I get into a relationship'

- 'That's because you always choose the wrong guy. Remember one time when you dated that guy named fahad?'

- 'ah stop it seriously just because I made a mistake in the past it doesn't mean that will happen again and again'

- 'I just want you to be more careful you know your parents are strict af.'

- 'You need to be less negative. I just don't get it why you are so negative?'

Fari asks me about me being so negative but she has no idea what has made me this way. Somehow the day ended and I walked back home.