A happy ending?

Am I alive?

Am I alive? I ask myself when I open my eyes and catch myself in a hospital's room.

Everyone from my family is here along with fariha.

'How I got in here?'- I ask them because it's impossible to get hit by a loaded truck and survive. Who knows that better than me?

'Abra brought you here' – fariha

'Abra? Wasn't she out of the town?' - I ask her in confusion.

With that the door opened and I saw my childhood friend Abra along with the doctor.

He tells everyone to leave the room and not make the room rushy for me. Abra somehow convinces the doctor to let her stay in the room along with fariha.

'When did you return?' – I ask Abra

'Three days ago. I reached here at midnight when you were trying to kill yourself' – Abra

'kill myself?' - I ask her in confusion.

'yes! When you were walking towards the truck so it can hit you and you can die!'

Abra seems to be angry at me

'that was three days ago?' - I ask her

'yes! I just landed and the first thing I wanted to do was to meet you so I told my parents to drive straight to your house and when we were on our way I saw you on the main road walking blindly towards the truck.

I ran towards you and pulled you from the front of the truck but because it was way to fast it's corner hit you and you were unconscious since then.'

'but why didn't the driver stopped the truck himself?' – fariha asks abra

'he was fucking drunk you know such drivers' – abra

'wao! You saved my life thank you so much.' - I am so mad at her for doing that.

'shut up you sarcastic moron.'

Abra is equally mad at me as I am.

'woah guys stop fighting. Hina the only thing we care about is why you tried to kill yourself?' – fariha

' I didn't tried to kill myself'

'yeah right that's why you were walking straight towards the damn truck.' - Abra

''I don't know what happened to me I was just not able to stop.'

'Are you depressed?' - Fariha asks me with concern in her eyes.

'I don't know. maybe'

This answer confirmed that I am depressed but now she wants the reason and I am not strong enough to explain.

Abra and fariha both give each other a look and left the room I know they will not stop until they find the reason.

I can hear them both. They are talking about how I have changed.

Abra – I am her childhood friend I know her well she was never like this. I know she is a little sensitive but also very strong emotionally I can't even imagine her to have depression.

fariha - it's only been a year since I have been with her she was a very lively person but I don't know what happened in the summer break that she changed that much. I tried to contact her many times but never got a reply.

Abra – her eyes, they use to be so bright. Now they look like they're filled with pain.

Abra genuinely cares for me. I know she is concerned for me but I can't help I am too weak to explain what made me this way. I want to tell her everything but am I strong enough? Strong enough to tell her everything that has happened to me. To explain her something who's thought scares me.

You know what even in the movies I have never seen such tragedies happening to innocent people not even to a criminal or a villain. Maybe because bad people always live a better life and what you get by being a nice person?

Abra enters the room and looks at me

'Why do you want to hurt yourself?' - She questions me.

'you know what abra I love pain that's why I'm always trying to hurt myself.

Pain is my fate abra. She looks at the side in disbelief and laid her eyes on my arms and noticed the cuts.

'Oh my God! No way hina. What have you done to yourself?' – Abra.

'Abra you know what when a blade goes through my skin and blood drops falling on the ground. It relaxes me. I do it all to give myself pain by my own hands because if I won't do it to myself then someone who I have trusted my whole life will; 'The Creator.'

This is the first time I have poured my heart in front of someone.

It's a very little part of what I have in my heart but at least I said something.

'What has made you this way?' - Abra

'life.'

'I swear if you weren't in this condition I would have slapped the depression out of you.' - Abra

I don't know what this was supposed to be felt like but it made me smile.

She sounds concerned and that's exactly how friends show their care for you.

At this time when I was feeling there's no one left in my life who cares for me, she is making me feel everything has not ended yet.