Life is hard. I'll admit that but it has to be or else it will be boring. Life is a roller coaster with its ups and downs and sometimes I feel like getting off the ride because it'll be easier but I know sometimes you just have to face your fears and push on.
Some point in my life I remember wanting to get off of the ride once and for all, tears were streaming down my face as I sat on my bedroom floor with the door shut and hearing my family scream and yell at each other. It wasn't a pretty sight. I clung to my knees tightly, thinking how painful it would be to actually do it but I was too scared to do anything so I just sat there, by myself until the next day arrived.
My eyes were red and puffy from crying the night before and I was still a mess but I cleaned my self off and made myself look presentable and got back on the roller coaster of life.
That all happened a couple of years ago and that was when I hit rock bottom but now I'd like to say I'm in a better place than before but I'm still not the best. I do cry to myself sometimes because of stress and life situations but I know I'm stronger and can pull through a lot easier. Right now though I'm in a situation where two boys like me and I like two boys. It may not sound confusing but it is. The two boys I like, well, one of them I thought liked me back but he now has a girlfriend and the other boy is one of his best mates and his love life is confusing. I could of told boy 2 that I liked him a while ago but I didn't. Now that I like him again I don't know if I should or not. I don't want to ruin our friendship but I don't want to know that there could of been a chance and I didn't take it but I'll know that things will work out even if they're not how I want it to.
Although I could be in a better place than I am now, I'm definitely in a better place than I was before. So keep your chin up, jump back onto the roller coaster of life and know that each day you become a stronger person than you were the day before and that you're a champ for getting through another day.
Lots of love and support, Charlotte x
