Flashback from May:
"Why are dating him? Can't you understand that you're not mature enough?"
" It's my life, I'm not a perfect daughter you wish to be! After what happened between you and dad... I FELT LIKE NO ONE LOVED ME!!!! So that's why I started dating."
*dead silent after what Jeanette said*
" You never spend time with me until now. You never go to church, you just drop me off, or whenever there's family fun stuff, we never go because you always have to work. What about that time when I went to a three day field trip...you didn't hug me or even said goodbye to me."
Mom: "You are always in your room! You never help out in the house! You always talk to your friends! You're so nice at school and here at home, you slam the door and always on your phone with your boyfriend and your friends. They're gonna talk bad things about you,you're family won't.
Jeanette: "You want to know why I'm always in my room? Well, I work hard to make you guys proud, to make things better for everyone, I'm not always on my phone, I don't talk to my friends that much because of homework! I want to achieve a lot of things in the future like you raising children for having a good life."
*cries and sniffing from both of them*
" You never told me any of this...you never told me how you felt... Of course I had to work because of paying your schools and activities. But now I work at home now, so if there's anything special...I'll be there.
•Back to June•
Things never really change, after the flashback but I'm so excited to do a mural in my room. But I'll tell you this, on the last day of school on a night where I'm writing "March". I realized my phone notified a text message. That text message changed my life "I'm sorry, I'm not responsible for this" is where things changed not just for me but for the people that love me. They will never see the girl that has a beautiful smile, they're just going to see a broken one. If he loved why would he lose me, if someone loves you so much, they will never or even won't even try to lose you. If people love you, cherish it! You put so much effort and keeping him happy and always being for him but it's all gone. But a close friend, dating the person you cherished with, it doesn't feel right. Right? I had a really big depression the whole summer and tried to commit suicide in my room being so empty, quiet, feeling lightheaded and having no sleep for days that's how much it crushed me. People giving me a lot of doubt, cruelty having no strength in school, while I'm just trying to have good grades smiling through the pain. But, what's the point of killing myself when I dreams to fulfill and having a life worthy to live.
That's when you guys come, thank you for sticking with me on my journey and waiting for me to make parts lololol. If no one loves you or you're getting bullied, then I Love You. I love your flaws and most important you. <3
- Love Lavender_galaxy <3
