Desperate Measures

Dedicated to girls or guys (kung meron) who are trying hard to move on, who was left without knowing why, who loved and got broken in the end.

DESPERATE MEASURES

"Ano bang hirap sa pagmomove on, te? Sinaktan at iniwan ka nung tao, ano bang di mo matanggap don?" 

Yun. Yun ang di ko matanggap. Bakit ko hinayaang iwan ako ng ganon. Bakit ko hinayaang masaktan ako. Bakit ko ba siya hinayaang makapasok sa buhay ko in the first place.

We were both young, living the teenage years when we first met. He's a friend of a friend, introduced to me like how a common first meeting goes. We didn't talk after that, I forgot he existed, he forgot me too. 

The second meeting was accidental. We met in the university. Hindi naman sa nagmamalaki, but ako lang ang nagaral sa UP that time among my friends. Some went to other big schools with high tuition fees that I admit, we couldn't afford. Besides, that was screaming UP. Sino ako para tanggihan ang isa sa pinakasikat na school sa Pilipinas.

Going back, I think nawawala siya non sa campus. Well Diliman's a big campus so di na bago yun. Nagtanong siya sa akin ng directions and then naalala yata namin ang isa't isa so there.. the story started. Our story, I stand corrected.

We became good friends then. Siya lang din daw kasi ang magisang pumasok sa UPD among his mates. Others went UST, DLSU and some other big named schools. Though di naman daw siya tinitipid ng parents niya, di rin daw niya matatanggihan ang UP. Yeah, same reason as mine. 

We hit it off. From friends to good close friends. Di kami pareho ng course but we hang out after class before we head off to our respective dorms. Or we even go overnights along with our new found friends.

And then one drunken night.. he confessed.

Cliche diba? Alak.. lasing.. truths.

"Ang manhid manhid mo. Mahal nga kita!" He said before he passed out.

That night changed everything. The day after, he became much sweeter and I became aware of his actions. Hanggang sa san nga ba napunta? Yes, I fell in love with him too. 

Three long years.

Three years of love, hate, friendship and all those weird, cute things you know about couples. Yes, had that kind of relationship. We took wacky pictures together. We had vacations around the Philippines together. We wrote love letters, we did surprises, we.. were basically the happy couple everyone thought we were.

Not until the recent months, both were busy with our senior year. Shempre thesis. Shempre majors. Shempre acads. Shempre priorities.

He was often absent on our important dates, or gatherings with our friends. Some of them are even asking kung nasan daw siya at bakit di ko kasama. "Busy" was all I could say.