My Demonic wolf.

Chapter eight

I eventually told Kat about the rejection but it took a lot of time to finally convince her and myself that I was okay.It took me a whole month but I got over it.I did however try to avoid Adrien as much as I could because
one:he rejected me and
two:I tried to kill his girlfriend.
To me those were two plausible reasons to avoid someone,so no,I wasn't running away from my problems.Speaking of solving problems I apologized to his girlfriend Jennifer,she was okay with the whole thing she even bought my lie about it being an accident.She was really friendly and in a weird way this made me hate her even more.Asides the whole Adrien thing everything in my life was now back to normal,I think.
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It was Saturday and Kat and I were in my room watching a marathon of our favorite series.We had just gotten to the last episode of season one when she decided to interrupt.
"Are you sure you are okay"she asked out of the blue.
"What do you mean?" I asked completely oblivious to where this conversation was heading.
"Are you over him"she said, cutting to the chase .When I realized where this was going I became slightly annoyed,I wasn't yet fully comfortable about this topic,anytime I talked about it I was left feeling bitter so I avoided the topic completely.
"I know you keep on telling me you're alright but you just don't get magically better by bottling up your emotions,"
"I'm fine" I replied back,hopefully she will get the hint that I didn't want to talk about it.
"No you're not,do you think I haven't noticed that you have stopped eating or the fact that you're always moody 24/7"
'I'm guessing she didn't get the hint'
"Drop it,Kat " I knew I had lost weight and I was no longer my cheerful self but that was to be expected, it would rather be weird if the rejection didn't affect me it all ,I did after all loose my other half.
Detecting the hostility in my voice she finally gave up.She got up so I assumed she was leaving but she stopped at my desk and picked up a photo,it was a picture of Valery and Kat.
"Are you still friends with Val, you stopped talking about her after your project" I could tell she was trying to change the topic so I decided to play along.
"Yeah,we still talk but not as much as we used to",I said while looking for my phone.
"Isn't she Adrien's sister"
"Yeah" I replied slightly confused.
"Then it's a good thing you're not with Adrien,it would have been weird since you 'dated' Val" she said while using her fingers as quotation marks when she mentioned the word date.'She just had to bring up his name'
I didn't know how to respond to her statement so I just kept quiet.After a minute of searching for my phone I became slightly frustrated
"Have you seen my phone"
"No" she simply replied.She then took a seat and lazily scrolled through her phone.
After nagging her to help me look for it she finally got up.She first checked my desk , then proceeded to check under my bed.I got off the floor and carefully maneuvered my way through the mess I had made and headed for the closet.
When I came out of the closet I saw Kat holding a book which looked oddly familiar."What is this"Kat asked with a slight trace of anger.
"A book" I responded in a duh voice.She then tossed the book over to me and I surprisingly caught it .After I got a good look at it I could now tell why she was making such a big deal out of it.The title of the book was in an ancient tongue,it doesn't have a direct translation in English, but the closest words for it would be book of spells. .This book was rumored to contain the souls of the fallen ,each page filled with each fallen's personal life and their discoveries.It held the history of our world and in the wrong hands it could be used as a weapon of mass destruction .The last time I was this close to the book I almost killed Kat.
"How did you get that"I asked immediately after I dropped the book on the ground.
"No wait,a better question would be
"Why would you hand me the book ?,you know I'm not supposed to come in contact with it"I screamed while trying to get as far away as I possibly could from the book.
"Stop pretending Zaya,I found this under your bed"she replied in a cold voice.
"I don't know how that got there"
"ZAYA just stop,you know what will happen if you keep on reading this book, we took them away because we only want what's best for you"
"Who knows what will happen if you continue on like this ,you might even turn out worse than your mother".As soon as those words left her mouth I could tell she regretted it.I was already hurt that she didn't believe me but she had to worsen it by comparing me with my mum, that was crossing the line.
This time I was furious so I responded with the same tone she used,"I'm capable of changing my destiny ,you of all people should know that,' white wolf' I replied with mock."If you can decide to give up your role as protector then I can also choose not to become like my mother."
"I told you never to bring that topic up"she yelled.It was weird how we ended up being friends considering the fact that we were sworn at birth to be mortal enemies.Huh I guess the prophecy was right after all.
Before things could get any worse she quickly packed her things and left making sure to loudly bang the door for a dramatic effect.
I was so angry that I started to throw things around breaking most of the things in the process.The last time I felt this amount of emotion I completely lost myself.
"NO not this again"I quickly rushed over to the mirror ,and just like I had predicted my irises were different colors and my appearance had also been slightly altered.The last time this happened I blacked out and when I woke up I found myself lying on my bed naked and covered in blood that wasn't mine.'I had completely forgotten about that event I was in shock when I found the blood on my body so I must have unintentionally erased that memory from my mind but now all the events of that night were coming back I remember finding the book besides me and putting it under my bed, I even remember wiping the blood of my body ,changing my bed sheets and going to sleep like nothing had happened '
Like last time I lost control of my movements and I was now walking towards the book,the first time I saw this book I was with Kat ,we had been running in the woods when I spotted the book just lying on the ground.I picked it up against Kat's protest ,and immediately when I opened the book I began to hear voices in my head,these voices were all screaming words in a language which I did not recognize, it sounded like a group of people chanting incoherent words very loudly and this caused me to have a massive headache,worse than the one I experienced when I shifted.I began to go crazy and I even started pulling at my hair. At one point of my crazy rampage I ended up pushing Kat when she tried to assist me .I caught her of guard so she fell and ended up hitting her head against a rock .This caused her to lose consciousness,thats when I finally came to my senses.I saw Kat's limp body on the floor and I started to panic.I tried to wake her up and when that failed I carried her on my back and started walking back to the pack.She was admitted to the hospital for a few days.During those days I just couldn't stop thinking about the book so I went back for it ,what followed was something I rather not talk about.
I tried to stop myself but my body was going against my instructions.I had now picked up the book and I had opened to a page on illusions.I began to chant words from the book in the ancient tongue .Soon a midst of smoke surrounded me and for a moment I couldn't see. When the smoke cleared I began to walk out of the room still not in control of my movements when I caught a glimpse of my reflection.I looked exactly like Jennifer with the exception of my eyes. That was the last thing I saw before I was transported into a room made of glass which was brightly lit.
"Not this again"
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