When it Rains (SasuNaru)

Chapter Twelve

           "Sasuke it is I who does not deserve you." Naruto held up a hand when it looked like Sasuke was going to argue. "No, let me say this." He took a calming breath. He was worried about what Sasuke would say.

          "The Naruto everyone knows is a lie. You saw in my memories, I am a suicidal, self harming, self loathing mess." He took a deep breath.

          All eyes were wide. What?!

           "You have only seen a small portion of what haunts me. I may be able to tell you about the others one day. What you did not see in those memories is that I hate everyone. No seriously. I do not like people. I rarely actually like someone. People are evil, vile, self absorbed and care about themselves. What is there to like? I hate this village. I hate the villagers. I hate Ramen. I never in a million years would want to be Hokage." It is a good thing their hands were covering mouths. The gasps that were released were so muffled that Naruto and Sasuke did not hear it.

           "I have thought about leaving and never coming back many times. But I had no where to go. This place has never been my home. Gaara would take me, but I could not bare to cause him trouble. So I stayed. I let the villagers abuse me. Not only did I let them, I welcomed it. I have been a shell of myself since I was 5. The villagers abused me beyond repair. I cracked Sasuke. I lost every piece of humanity that day. That should never have happened to a little kid. I should have been safe in this village. But no. This godforsaken place destroyed me." He growled out in anger. The anger could be felt in waves to the group listening. Some were crying from his words. Some were just shocked.

           Why had no one done anything to help Naruto? Why was the village so blinded by hate that they couldn't see him for what he was. Just Naruto. He is not the Nine Tails.

           "This place has been a hell hole. But the physical pain was my only escape. I let them abuse me because I thought that was the only way I could feel anything. I thought pain was the only way to feel alive. I confused pain with emotion. I do not know positive emotions. Never having them directed at me. Love, Like, adoration, happiness they are all foreign concepts to me. I do not even know if I am capable of those feelings." Eyebrows furrowed.

           "I have been depressed for so long. Alone my whole life. The words and hate spewed at me everyday is enough to make any sane person lose it. In a way I did. I cut myself. I physically harmed myself as a way to escape the shit reality of mine." Sadness was felt all around. No one should have to go through this. "But I realized something today." Naruto smiled a little at Sasuke.

           "That all I was doing was escaping. You can only run for so long. Eventually it will catch up to you. I can not run forever. I need to stop bottling it all up. I need to let it out. I need to stop all of this. I still am not entirely sure what love is. But Sasuke my heart is telling me that I love you. I know it to be true." The girls minus Sakura smiled behind the hands.

           "I want to change Sasuke. I do not want to be depressed any longer. For so long I was trapped in a hole with no way out. But you are the light, you are my way out. You make feel things I never thought possible. You make me feel like I could do anything, be anything. You make me want to be a better person. I do not want to be in pain anymore. I do not want to hurt myself any longer. I do not know quite how to do all of this. But with your help I want to try. I know I do not deserve you-" Sasuke cut Naruto off. He launched himself at Naruto knocking him over. He leaned down and kissed him. Naruto looked shocked before kissing back enthusiastically.

           Sakura was fuming. How dare he?!

           They broke apart panting for air. Sasuke looked down at Naruto before saying, "Naruto you deserve me. You deserve the world. You deserve happiness. I dedicate my life to making sure that you get just that. I swear on everything that I am that I will make you happy every single day. I will help you in any way possible Naruto." Sasuke said with love clearly in his voice.