THE HEARTLESS ALPHA

CHAPTER 12 HIS BLEEDING HEART

I stared at my mate with love, lust and desire. All I wanted is for him
to hug me and kiss me.

Wow did I just say that. I never felt this way before, it is all new to
me. But I am happy and felt joy in my heart.

Just thinking about my mate makes my heart flutter and skip
a beat.

My mother told me to forgive my mate about his past no matter
what he has done, I must forgive.

What got me wondering is that, what did my mate do?

Why did my mother look at me with worried eyes?

I already have feelings for my mate and all I want to do is for him
to cuddle with me.

But as for now I must put that feelings aside and listen to my mate's past
and forgive him.

Right? Easier said than done

I turned to my handsome mate and see the same emotion in his eyes for the
past twenty minutes.

Yep that's right, we have been staring at each other waiting for one of us to start
a conversation.

At first I just cant wait to tell my mate how much I love him but now we just stared
at each other loving this moment and not wanting to look away.

But I decided to start the conversation before he jump me. It look like he is having
a battle with himself and his wolf

" Baby we need to talk" I said soft and I think husky but I also felt lust
in my voice as well which surprised me

I looked at my mate and gasped when his wolf was out.

All I wanted to do was bolt but I still remember that I am in the hospital bed.
I needed water from that talking. So I reached over to get the glass water but
I saw my mate get it for me.

" I will do everything for you until I see you better" he said in a deep but husky voice

Oh my goodness, his wolf voice was more manly and scary yet sexy. Which cause me
to feel something in my stomach and moist between my legs.

I wonder what is this feeling I never felt it before. I was about to say thank you but
was cut of by his lips smashing against mine.

To say I was shocked was the understatement. I moved my lips with his and his was
hungry and passionate.

I moan which caused me to blush. Was that noise that came from my mouth?

I never felt this way. That moan caused my mate to groan take the kiss deeper if
possible.

We stop after awhile. I gasped and forgot that his wolf was still at bay and I see
him battle with himself.

He pass me the water and I drunk it fast and I felt so much better

" What is your name" I ask in a soft voice

" My name is Dakar [Dar-car]" his voice was soothing yet powerful, dominate, and
husky

I close my eyes feeling the weird pool between my thighs yet I still don't know why
I feel this way.

What is this feeling?

I open them and saw my mate twitching like he wanted to touch me. He then smell the
air which I got curious wondering what is he smelling

Then he snapped he head to me and his eyes went red which caused me to back away.

He took slow steps towards and I felt scared, excited, tired, happy, and this other feeling
I think um.....

I dint even finish before I felt him pull both of my legs towards him causing me to squeak
and curious what he is going to do

The next thing I know, he is looking at me trying his best to control something but what?

" MATE, YOU, ARE, KILLING, ME" he said slowly yet dangerous laced in his voice causing
me to shiver with delight

" Baby let...."  he cut me off

" MATE, DON'T CALL ME THAT RIGHT NOW IF YOU DON'T WANT TO GET PUNISHED" he
said looking at me lustfully and painfully

" Ba- let me talk to Leon please" I said in a sweet voice

He Looked like he didn't want to leave so I added,

" We can talk later I promise but please let Leon back" I said  in a promising tone

I saw him close his eyes before opening them and I saw my mates beautiful hazel yet
green eyes.

He stared at me with love and adoration.

" Please tell me about your past" I said anxious as I waited long enough for an answer

He stared at me looking like he knew this conversation was bound to happen anyway

ALPHA LEON'S POV

I knew this conversation was bound to happen one way or another. So
I sat down next to her preparing for her reaction after I tell her

For I know it is not going to be pretty

" Mate promise me that you will never hate me no matter what" I said with pain in my voice
hoping she will not hate me for what I am about to say to her

" I- I promise" she says looking anxious for what I'm about to say

I sighed in relief and started to tell her...

" I was at a pack house for a piece treaty.... I talked to my dad and he wanted me to come back
to the pack house after I was done. So after the piece treaty was signed, we drove back to the pack house
but... w-we heard that the pack was attack by rogues. I was so angry me and the men that was with me
turn into our wolves knowing we will get there faster.
When we arrived I smelt nothing but blood and decay. I- we went and attack fighting the rogues, killing
one by one even two at a time.
Bu-But I went in front of the porch a-and saw my mate lying dead in front of the doorstep" he voice was
sounded like he is forcing to tell me and it it killing him to

" You do-" I was cut off by him

" No I wa- no need to say this" he said with pain in his voice

" I saw my mate laying there lifeless and all I can think about is revenge. I wanted nothing else but to cause
pain and hurt anything in my way not caring who it was. I felt every single emotion leave me making me
feel empty on the inside. Al-All I wanted was blood shed and to see people hurt and cry. I went on a killing
spree, killing rogues even some of my pack members. All I saw was red and then I saw my father. He wanted
me to control myself. I told him about my mate and I saw how sorry he was but I dint care for I wanted people
to die by my hands. I went to attack him and then my mother came out stopping me from doing any more harm
to him. He gave me the Alpha title knowing it was the only thing that I have that day. I told them to leave and never
come back. After that I went to attack the neighboring pack for I heard that the Alpha was a horrible leader. So we
went and conquered it with ease. I killed the Alpha and the luna was so happy and sad but free. She said she
wanted to become the cook and I agreed. I told everyone that doesn't join our pack dies. They join but...."
he said like he was scared to tell me but I needed to know what happened

I was already in tears for what he went through and it hurt me to see him this way. The regret in his eyes, guilt,
and pain on his facial expression

" Please tell me" I said in a hurt voice

He turned around and I saw tears

" I felt myself slip into darkness. I gave myself to the darkness for the pain I felt from losing my mate. I-I couldn't
control myself. I dint know what was I doing and all I heard were cries of mothers, dads, and chi-children.
when I find myself out of the darkness, I-I-I....." it seems like he dint want to tell me, like he was forcing himself not
to tell me. Thinking I would probably hate him

I took his face in my hands and look into his teary eyes as my were the same

" Please tell me what happened" I said in a pleading voice

He stared at me for awhile before saying something that shattered and broke my heart into into pieces like
shattered glass

" I killed all their children............