Regardless.

Untitled. A Life Story.

And this was it.

Here's the truth. I have nothing to lose. What's the point in lying?

I felt alone. And I had been told that it was just what happens when you get heartbroken. You feel pain and that was it.

My heart broke because I broke someone else's. They don't tell you that can happen, but it can. You can be absolutely broken at the thought of someone else wallowing in self pity just because of a few words you said to them.

Let me break down what exactly happened.

I was in love. I was so in love it hurt. They also don't tell you what love was or what it felt like. I didn't know love was wasting your time crying or worrying so much about if they got home safe or being so jealous it shook your core. I didn't know how hard it was to love someone, and that was my fault. Being so young, 16 years old and staring that the person who you knew would be your everything was so scary. The world was so big, how can this person be everything to me? How could they mean more than anyone else? The world was too big and I was suffocating when it fell on my shoulders.

Don't let anyone fucking tell you that you can't break someone's heart if you really, truly love them. It's all a lie. And sitting here now, staring at my wall, my cheeks raw from all the tears and rubbing, I realize that my life from now on will just be wishing with my every might that life treats him kind. I realize he will fall in love with someone else and I will watch and my heart breaks. The rest of it that was holding it together shatters and my world crumbles.

All because 16 year old me didn't understand he was my world and looking at him with his blue eyes and warm smile made me happy. 16 year old me didn't understand he was my future.

This is my journey on my way back to him, regardless on whether I get there or not.

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