The Maynards

The Countryside

And there I was, in the waiting room of an abortion clinic with Conor's ex girlfriend.... Who Jack had got pregnant. Yes, I was supporting my exes ex girlfriend who also happened to be my cousin, who was about to have an abortion. It's quite complicated. Jack had been really depressed, him and Conor haven't spoken or seen each other in 3 days, in fact no one has seen Conor in three days, lord knows where he has gone.
I had tried to go back home to try start my normal teenage life, but I couldn't, i couldn't stop crying and I wanted to be with my friends... It just so happens my friends are also my exes friends. You may be thinking 'Gemma wtf get your own friends' but I did, I had many in fact, but they wouldn't understand the situation. Of course I spoke to them about it but the problems I was having were those that a twenty year old would have, not a sixteen year old, my friends just wouldn't understand. I have always been more mature than my friends, I think that's why I get on so well with Joe, Jack, Mikey, Caspar, josh and well.... Used to with Conor. One thing that didn't help were the fact that they were guys so still didn't quite get it but Joe did, he always has been good at making you feel better, wether it's Fifa, pizza or getting wasted, he always had a plan. Anyway back to the abortion......
Jack was depressed, so I decided to text Bronte, I obviously didn't mention I was seeing Conor, at that point I was but I'm pretty sure she knew , and I was not about to mention to her what had happened, and as awkward as I felt, this wasn't for my sake, it was for Jacks. I told her she needed to do something, she wanted to be a doctor and had nearly finished her digree and neither her or Jack wanted a baby right now. Bronte finally agreed to go, she hadn't told anyone yet, not even her friends so she asked me, and I am family so I had to say yes, I couldn't say no.

The abortion had been taken care of and we said goodbye, She told me to be careful and that those boys are trouble and she knows what goes on. I told her not to worry and would text her if I needed to, but it is so awkward cause she had got with them both as well. We said goodbye and I got an uber home as I was going to the countryside for the weekend with my family and we were literally leaving in like 5 minutes. As soon as I got home I uploaded my new video, it was with Conor and Jack, but it was a funny never have I ever and it would most definitely make people laugh, so why not.

I got in the car, my parents cross as we were meant to leave 15 mins ago but I HAD to upload. It was then time to go to the countryside, where I can hopefully forget about everything with Conor, however on the journey down he was all I could think about. I think I may have really liked him, maybe even loved him. I couldn't do anything though, mainly to the fact that I didn't know where he was.

Once we arrived at the air bnb in the countryside, after the long car journey of millions of questions from my mum of where I was and what's happening in my life, don't worry I obviously didn't tell her, just said friend argument, it was an easy escape from the conversation I was not ready to have. We were told to come back in an hour or two as it wasn't quite ready yet and decided to go into the village to have some tea and cake.
As we sat in the cafe I was quiet, the rest of my family talking about my brothers birthday presents, I zoned out like I was in my own little world, the middle of everyone around me till I heard his voice. I thought I may have been dreaming, I turned and looked around, getting a few weird looks from my parents. It couldn't have been him, he wouldn't come here I was just imagining it. Our cakes arrived and I had carrot cake, my fave and for a moment all thoughts were gone. I then went to the loo having drunk a whole litre whilst waiting for the cake. As I came out I saw him, hidden in the corner it was him, his voice I could recognise anywhere. Why was he here, you would never find him in a place like this. Before my brain could fully process what was happening Conor had already gotten up and left. I did what my instinct was, I followed him and as I passed my table told my mum I was getting fresh air, she tried to stop me I think but I just ran off, I loved this boy and this may have been the only time I could every have a chance to talk to him.
"Hey Conor wait "
He turned around
This was it
The moment that could bring us together or push us away forever.
As he turned, my heater began to race, what was I going to say. He saw me, he was in shock and I don't think it was a good shock. I thought he was about to say something, instead he turned away.
"Conor, please, no" I gently touched his arm, tears rolling down my cheeks as I tried to hold them back.
"It wasn't me who did this, it was you."
" I'm sorry, I never wanted to hurt you, you never had a drunken fuck."
" not with my girlfriend sister, no"
" I'm sorry, i feel shit, I shouldn't have done it, but I did and I made a mistake nothing will ever happen with me and Jack again, we are friends. We have to talk, I think.." I was not about to say this
"I think I love you."
He looked at me, I saw tears growing in his eyes, no way was he going to let a tear fall. He looked at me, his cute little face staring at me in his big orange coat, he looked so adorable. He started walking back to his car, I had said all I could, there was nothing else to say. As the tears rolled down my checks like a rippling river, I watched the boy I love drive away, a tear rolling down his check too, maybe there is a chance for us......

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