The Maynards

The Good Feeling Oops

After a few moments of just standing there, I wiped my tears and went back inside, what the hell was I going to say to my parents. I paused "Where did you go?" My mum asked, almost angry. Right let's think, "I was feeling ill and went outside to get some fresh air, I'm ok now"
I feel like my lie was more believable than what actually happened, I mean saying that I ran after my semi ex boyfriend who I haven't seen in 3 days because I slept with his brother isn't really the most believable story ever, especially to my mum. I get a few confusing looks, but no one questioned me so, we should be all good. It's not like my mum doesn't know about Conor, but I don't think she knows we are or were dating, she probably still thinks I'm just that little fangirl dying over the fact I know them, I mean part of me is I'm not going to lie, but if she was going to find out it wasn't going to be now. We sat there for a bit longer until our house was ready and we left.
As I got in the car, I texted, and texted and texted, I had to do something, when I wanted something, I was going to get it, and I wanted Conor, I began to get angry at the whole situation, was jack really worth it? Then a VERY bad thought came into my head "Ohhh yes it wassss" SHIT, I even but my lip. I told myself I just thought he was fit and it was all just sexual and I actually had something with Conor, or at least I tried to convince myself that.
The house was gorgeous and after a few hours of chilling and me repeating the whole past few days in my head, everyone had gone to bed, but despite it being nearly one in the morning, I still couldn't sleep. I had sent Conor more texts than anyone would want to read, and still no reply.
BING
JACK IMESSAGE
Hey, how are you? Wanted to check you were alright.
My honest first thought, 'fuck he cares.'
I replied just a simple 'good but I've been better' because I didn't want a conversation, I knew I would fall in love, I knew it. You may think I am stupid, that you can fall in love with two people at the same time, and we don't know it yet but omg yes you can.
As a 13 year old day dreaming of Jack and Conor, and going between them both, people often asked me who I would choose, and I never could. Up until this very moment that was fine, I told myself I'd never have to, god was I wrong?
I put my phone down, and tried to sleep, it was a long night.

I woke up, desperate to see him, and i didn't think i would at all, ever, again. i woke up around 11 because of my late night and i had a note;
Didn't want to wake you, but we we gone to see the Charles' (family friends, had a REALLY fit son my age and one my brothers, but i definitely didn't need any more boy trouble so i'm glad they left without me,) will be back tomorrow. Love Mum x
TOMORROW? what the hell, why are they staying and leaving me here, i texted my mum but no signal, obviously,so great i was stuck here sad and alone, but technically didn't have to be.
Call me stupid, but i needed a party,this place had a firepit outside and god was i ready to get pissed. i sent round a snapchat to all my friends, using the extremely slow wifi, saying party in the middle of no where, obviously not that many could come, but i suggested uber pool, and they agreed, i also wattsapped, caspar, joe, mickey, josh, oli, jack and conor, i also invited abe and alex. yes, inviting conor was a stab in the dark, but worth a shot.
I set up the place, got a fire going, music, alcohol and cigarettes, i didnt smoke but i knew jack and others did, I tried it once, grim, don't do it. It was nine o'clock and people started to arrive. I was so glad my friends had come so far just for a party, that was commitment, but everytime someone walked through the door i hoped and prayed it would be conor, and evrytime it wasn't. What made it a little better was jack, yes jack came, so did abe, alex and mikey, the rest had buisness calls tomorrow morning, early, so couldn't. But all I wanted was to hear from Conor.

It got to 1 am and I had given up all hope of Conor coming, I was having fun but Jack was coming on to me but my mind was on Conor , and if I had slept with jack right now, well I would be thinking about Conor the whole entire time, and that would be weird. Most people had gone to bed in the spare rooms or sofa, and it was just me jack and Alex left outside. The door bell rang, the smell of jacks cigarette was getting nauseating so I was glad I could get up and take a breather. I had no idea who it would be, I hoped it would be Conor, but i also knew that the chances of it being him were slim to none at this point.
I open the door.
The bright orange jacket staring me in my face. I looked at him, he looked gorgeous. He was breathing heavily, he was staring at me with passion and want. And that was when something so good, so. Good. Happened.

He stepped forward, fast and hungry, and our lips touched it was strong, but good, not forceful but hard. I knew what this was, hate sex, and in the long run it probably wasn't a good idea, but god was it good now. He pushed me through the living room, exposing us to jack and Alex in the garden, but I wasn't thinking about that. Conor took me to the spare room, and started to trail down my neck, taking my clothes off as he went. Falling on the bed, we looked at each other, we spoke to each other with just one glance, saying, 'wow this feels good'.

E X P L O S I V E. The best hate sex I have Ever. Had.
I'm not sure how I was going to feel about it tomorrow morning though.....

I have been gone so long but I'm getting so into writing that you guys are probably going to get quite a lot from me in the coming weeks. Thank you for all the love and support and I hope you guys like reading this as much as I enjoy writing, and I hope you enjoyed the saucy ending ;). Can't wait for the next one. Xx