Chain Smoker

Chapter 1

  I was laying on my bed, appreciating how comfortable it was. I glanced at the clock and shit,it was already 7:30 pm. I was expecting company. Kiara and Marina are coming over to visit and share their condolonces. I startled when I heard knocks on my door. The door opened slowly and it was mother. "Flo, your girls are here." She said. "Bring them in." I demanded. The two girls came in and gave me the most sympathetic look. I looked at them and gave them the fakest smile. "I'm sorry to hear about your dad, Florelle." Kiara started. "Yeah,I'm sorry too,babe." And followed by Marina. Both of them came closer and sat beside me on my bed. Kiara and Marina flung their arms and wrapped them around me. "Oh guys,I feel the love." I joked,trying to lighten up the situation. They laughed. They let go of their arms and Kiara as usual, the most caring girl ever will ask me if I was okay. "Are you sure you are going to be okay?" She asked, holding my hands. "I will, don't worry." I said, squeezing her hands even tighter.

   We sat there silence for two minutes and I finally decided to break the silence. "Oh guys!" I jumped out of bed, prepared to tell them the good news. "I finally got it. I got it! My dream university in my dream country!" I told them, with a happy tone. "New Zealand?" Marina asked. I nodded. Both of them screamed and gave me a hug. It was a happier hug. "When?" Kiara asked,her eyes widened. "Probably the day after tomorrow." I said and shot them a cheesy smile. "Wait, what about Ash? Are you going to leave him here?" Marina asked. Ash, that fucking asshole. Ash and I, we are not a couple nor friends. We are somewhere in the middle. But somehow, I'm glad we are not a couple because I don't fucking love him. Not anymore. Ash was a great guy until I found out he treats other girls the same way he treated me. I tried to cut off this whole relationship but he kept saying baby no, I love you, please stay. He made me feel wanted and unwanted at the same time. Things were critically complicated between me and him.

 "That asshole?" I shrugged and rolled my eyes. 

"At least you scored him before that hoe did." Kiara joked. All of us bursted into laughter.

"Which hoe?" Marina joked. We all know Ash slept with plenty of girls from our highschool. It's countless. His appearance is extremely good. He has a dark hair, mesmerising brown eyes and he was insanely tall. On the bad side, his attitude is a fucking mess. He didn't even ask if I was okay or even ask about the death about my dad. How idiotic is that? How idiotic I am to fall for someone like him? Screw it. Screw him. "I should end it right?" I asked the girls. They nodded without any hesitation. Marina even sticked out a double thumbs up. "You deserve so much better, baby. You should date me." Kiara with her endless jokes never fail to make me laugh.

"I'll end it then." I sighed.

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    As soon as the girls went home, I grabbed my phone and texted Ash. I danced my fingers as I was trying to figure on what to say. I started with a;

"Hey."

"Oh hey, Flo. I'm sorry to hear about your dad."

"It's okay. Is it possible if we could meet tomorrow?"

"Tomorrow should be fine. See you tomorrow at yours."

"Okay, see you tomorrow x"

He acted like cared but he doesn't.

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      As usual, I woke up and not looking forward for anything. As if the world doesn't mean anything anymore. I fluttered my eyes open and hovered to side of the bed, checking my phone. Surprisingly, Ash sent me a text.

"Bab, I'm so sorry. I couldn't meet you today, I have other plans. x"

    I sighed deeply as I couldn't believe what I just read. First of all, he cancelled the plan. Second,he didn't even bother to spell check before he click send. Bab? Geeez. I was so devastated. He used to be really nice and clingy. For instant,when we were in high school, we spent our lunch with kissing instead of having lunch. Everything felt so right. I thought everything was going to be okay but instead, everything turned south. It scares me how people change so quickly. How people can get bored of you so easily.

I need to end it today.

Today.

Today.

Today.

My thoughts were echoing in my head, it killed me.

    I couldn't handle it. I needed to end it by today. I rushed to the bathroom, took a quick shower and put on a denim dress. Mother left a note on the kitchen counter. It read, I'm out for groceries shopping. I'll be back by 12. I looked at watch and it was 10 am. I had two more hours so I ran towards the front door, went outside and locked the door. I jumped inside my gorgeous Audi TT and started the engine.

    I jumped off my car and I was standing infront of an apartment which was Ash's place. He didn't really invite to me his apartment. I always wondered why. Ash used to tell me, "If you have anything important and you need to see me really bad, just use the emergency stairs okay?" This was important and this was urgent. I headed to the emergency stairs and climbed up eight flights of stairs.

    When I reached his room, I slided open the window and my jaw dropped instantly. My eyes widened. My eyes couldn't believe what was I looking at. Ash was half naked, on top of a random chick. That chick was topless with only a bra on. "Ash?" I said, with a cracked voice. He startled, letting himself off from the chick. He jumped off the bed and ran to me. I turned away quickly. "Florelle! Baby!" He yelled, trying to catch my attention. "Flo! I can explain! It's not what you think it is, I swear to god." He continued. I stopped. I turned around. "Oh it is what I think it is. You know what, dickhead? We're done. I'm done here. I never want to see you again. You may go fuck your precious girl who's waiting for you." I said. He just looked at me sympathetically. "Babe? Please?" He pout. I came closer to him, caressed his cheek and gave him a huge slap I've been longing. I showed him my beautiful middle finger and walked away.

     So that's why. I didn't even cry. Of course there was a massive hatred and how betrayed I felt. I was glad that I passed over that mess. It was time for me to begin a new life. A new chapter, hopefully.

THANKS TO MY BABY BOO FOR EDITING ❤ xx