Pain and strength

Her life

Waking up for bell is usually a very hard task. Her alarm clock screams at 5:15 every morning so she has time to get dressed and start walking to school. She presses the half burnt cigarette to her lips, tightly clutched between her middle and forefinger. She prepares for her early walk in the brisk cold weather to get to school early. She throws on her jeans, old thermal shirt, boots, and a jacket. She just wants to get there so she can see Angelo, the guy who brightens her day with just one smile. His hugs give her relief from stress, and from the cold. His lips gently press against her cold purple tinted lips making a smile break across her face. He is the only one who understand her really, at least for the most part that is. He understands the depression and anxiety she had and the feeling of not really giving a shit if she didn't wake up the next day. But he sees past the issues she has, she hugs him and kisses him goodbye and they say I love you to each other as they part to go home. On her walk home the ought the alleys and backstreets of Elko Nevada, she keeps her fists clenched and ready just incase any crazy people try to start something. Through the alley of broken glass and needles, she stumbles across the place she met the man in the cargo shorts. She stands there and thinks of how amazing it would feel if she could find him again and beat the shit out of him. She then snaps out of it and scoffs, returning to her journey home. She finally arrives at the old, small, and dinged up apartments she lives in and climbs her way up the stairs to the top level where she lives. She stirs around in her bag for her keys. "Damn Bell, why are you always so disorganized?" She asks herself as she finally feels her key ring and pulls them out to unlock the door. It's kind of a tricky task to open the door from the numerous times her mothers bastard of an ex boyfriend has kicked it in when he was on one of his drunk or high rages and wanted to attack her. She gets in and throws her book bag to the side, plopping down on the couch to text Angelo back.
B: "hey ;-;"
A: "hi"
B: "today was shit"
A:  "yeah tell me about it haha"
B: "at least I got to see you today 😊"
A: "yeah, well hey I g2g"
B: "ok I love you"
A: "I love you too"
She sighs and forces herself to get up to do her chores so her mom doesn't have her ass when she gets home from work. After she finished her chores she turns on the stove to cook dinner. "Looks like we're having chicken and potatoes again tonight," she says as she rolls her eyes. She puts some dinner away for her mom and quickly scarfs hers down. She doesn't eat breakfast, and usually doesn't eat lunch either. After dinner she takes a hot shower and let's the hot water beat down on her shoulders. She then proceeds to dry off and takes her meds and texts Angelo goodnight. Then she proceeds to drift off into sleep, just to wake up and do it all over again.