January 2014:
For the past month Anya would not stop talking about Chase, any simple thing that he did she'd put it on blast to me, I'd be there to support but you know how when girls just gossip and go into a state of daydreaming about them? Yeah, that was Anya every day and it was annoying some days, but I was happy for her that she had someone around.
For my own happiness, Richard and I have been fairly good around each other, but I sensed something was wrong with us but I never spoke up about it. He's making an effort to try to talk and be on for me, but he doesn't have a phone for us to communicate and I've never seen him, but I know he's younger.
Sounds stupid I know, but I trust that he is his age, and even if he's not hot that's not supposed to matter; guys with the perfect personality is more beautiful than how he looks. I was happy with him for the most part, and unless something bad was truly happening then I figured there was nothing to worry about.
However, as days went on and Christmas past he announced that he got an iPod and immediately we tried to set up kik for him so we can see how each one of us looks; may I say, I felt something off when we exchanged pictures? From the lighting he almost had a yellow complexion, so he was quite pale, his hair was slightly helped up into spikes, he had a red t-shirt flannel and hooded eyes.
He wasn't really bad looking, he was a sweetheart overall, but I thought he would've been cute if he flashed a little smile rather than stare into a mirror, but oh well I'm not judging. However, I knew my picture was just pure shiz and I regretted sending that particular one, mainly because my eyebrows were starting to grow in, and us bushy ladies know how that's like.
I also noticed a change in atmosphere as soon as my message hit R, like I'm over here not judging and I noticed that his texts that used to be full with cheer and life, just suddenly got dry. I felt like shit, getting a feeling that he was going to become a Tre.
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I remember Tre like this just happened recently. I was probably a noob on that game too, and he was a few levels above me. To all that don't know the level system, the higher the level the more you knew things around the game and the hotter you apparently seem to be.
Anyway, I bought a rare item that day, a beanie cause they're the shiz so why not? He hit me up so quick, I didn't even know why he barely even knew me. Funny thing was, this was maybe a year ago and I agreed to go out with him and he asked for my name after he asked me out. He decided to switch kiks so we could see how each of us would look like and even though I don't really judge, but he was a chocolate fetus.
His head was just a big chocolatey sphere, he had a button nose and looked excited about nearly everything. He was on the chubby side yes, but my surprise was that this kid was older than I was. He looked at my picture and made no comment whatsoever, and funny thing the next day, he broke up with me when I came on immediately.
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I was upset that Ricky had changed his tone with me since that day, but I hoped nothing serious would come out of it; maybe it was my imagination. I have no idea, I'm not one to know what goes inside his head. Then, when I saw Anya come on to talk to me, she made another announcement that she had news, but the way she typed it out made it seem like something wasn't good.
"Chase broke up with me," she stated.
"Why, what happened?" I asked.
"I don't know," she said. "We were fighting I guess." I didn't push her more than that, if she wanted to go into details, I'd let her go in her own time if she was ready.
But she made me start thinking more about my own relationship; Ricky and I never fought and that was weird. From a young age I knew it was healthy to have fights with your significant other, it shows that not everything is perfect, everything has flaws but those flaws make you stronger when you sort them out together. I never had that kind of moment with Ricky.
I recall months after him and I were together if maybe we should break up, I only suggested it because it seemed like he deserved better than me, this was before he made me insecure about us exchanging pictures of ourselves too.
He said no he didn't want us to break up, we're fine where we were and I didn't mention that I felt like I was holding him back from dating other girls that may be his type, he also doesn't know about my own history with varieties of guys.
Yes I was a little skank, I didn't know the rules of properly dating someone. About when I met Ricky was about the time that I wanted to get serious with another person, but I knew I never wanted to go back to girls after my experience in the past however.
However, I wasn't sure if it was okay for me to take all his experience with girls away from him. I believe every man should have a different experience with a few other girls before deciding which is his type rather than just saying yes to the first girl he's ever dated or asked him out. I'm not saying that he should cheat or be a player, but he should know how other girls are is all.
Around the times where Ricky hung out with me though, it seemed like a while since me and him spent alone time together, almost like a date except he'd bring his best friend Anthony to talk to as well. Now I never really talked with Anthony, but I don't think that he would appreciate me taking his best friend away from him and such. He never approved of our relationship, it almost seemed like he was jealous whenever I was around.
Although, one day Ricky had accidentally logged off and both of us were looking for him. Anthony didn't talk shiz to me while Ricky was elsewhere, which I thought was pretty nice but he didn't really make us there comfortable either.
I forgot who started it, but we started making small talk, mainly about Ricky but he asked me how long we've been going out, I'd only say a couple months or so, and as we kept talking it almost seemed like Anthony was playing the big brother role to Ricky, he said for me not to hurt him, that he's never had a girlfriend and such but I already knew not to be like that.
Anthony seemed to tolerate me more after that, learning and getting know me. What shocked me while we talked was that he was a year older than me, which I'm not going to lie made me a little more nervous. It was the same with Chase, I only went "-.-" because I didn't want to say anything that would make a fool of myself.
Anyways, Ricky then came back online to us and we both located him as soon as his notification popped up. I felt more comfortable with both the boys there until Jay, Anthony's younger brother came and just made it into a guy party; I immediately felt left out or or out of place.
There were times when Anthony would make some kind of sex joke towards me, and Ricky would just not have it. I laughed and so did Jay as Ricky got defensive over me, giving Anthony serious faces and standing over my avatar nearly the entire time.
For a couple weeks me and the guys would mainly just hang out, and then I started to slowly realize something, that Anya hasn't been online since she told me the news of her and Chase. I decided to click her profile in my friends list one day and check her bio to see if there was any change at all, and I was shocked because she didn't even kik me after all this time either.
Anya had quit.
