[ON HOLD] 6 Months || Markhyuck

Month 2.

Month 2.

You were finally happy with him. I thought that my time I had left to spend with you was over but you surprised me once again by asking me to hang out with you constantly. I thought that you hated me before and couldn't stand me, at least that's what he always told me. I had always distanced myself from you before this because I didn't want to bring you pain from always having to see me.

Relieved. That was what I felt when I found out that you didn't hate me but wanted to spend time with me and wanting to get to know me better. It felt nice to feel wanted for once. No one knew my backstory not even my closest friends but I was fine with living that way.

Flashback

'You useless disgusting worthless thing. How dare you call yourself my son?! No child of mine likes someone of the same gender. Get the fuck out of my house and never come back!' My mother, the one person I thought would always love me, the person who brought me into this world, one of the few people I had depended on for the past 16 years screamed at me as she chased me out.

I ran to my elder sister's house about 2 streets away and knocked on her door till she opened it. She saw me crying and quickly brought me in, letting me hug her as I broke down crying. She knew that I liked you for a long time and she had supported me in anything that I did.

Afraid, was what I felt when I told my sister about me liking towards boys but she accepted it wholeheartedly. It gave me courage to come out to my own mother, but she pushed me away.

Present

We would go to the park almost every day and hang out. It felt great to be with you and around you endlessly but Jaemin told me to stay away from you and stop taking you away from him.

I had to agree to do that because I knew that he was your happiness and not me. In your eyes I would always be a second choice.

I started to push you away, rejecting you every time you asked to hang out for a while and told you to go with Jaemin. I could tell you were upset that I kept pushing you away but I told myself that it was for the best.

Jaemin had finally learnt how to treat you well and you didn't need me anymore. At least it was what I thought when you stopped asking me to hang out with you for a week.

I thought you would finally be happy with Jaemin and nothing would hurt you anymore. Sure I was sad that I wouldn't be able to have long talks with you at night, or see you smile because of me again, but I told myself this everytime, that as long as you were happy, I would be fine.

Days past and my friends started asking me why I pushed you away, telling me that you went around asking everyone. I simply told them that it was for the best and they should tell you that.

I thought everything was okay until Jeno, my best friend confronted me about it, 'Mark. Stop pushing Donghyuck away. The rest of them may not know but I know what the reason is, it's Jaemin right? He told you to stay away from Donghyuck.'

I stayed quiet not answering him. How did he find out? Jaemin told me not to tell anyone or something would happen to Donghyuck.

'Stop ignoring me. I was there when he told you that, you guys just didn't realize I was hiding there. Donghyuck isn't as happy as he was before and even I can see that, stop pushing him away and just continue having fun and being his friend.' He sighed and took one more look at me before walking away, leaving me there alone to collect my thoughts by myself.

Should I just continue hanging out with him? What if he's just hanging out with me because he pities me. That's probably right I doubt he hangs out with me cos he wants to. I'm useless, worthless and no one wants to be my friend. I'm grateful that Jeno and Jisung are even friends with me and that they haven't left me yet.

That's what I felt, but secretly deep down inside, I hoped that Donghyuck wouldn't stop trying to find out why I pushed him away and come back to me and ask to hang out again. I would definitely agree.

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what even is this mess of a chapter 😭😭but I hope you guys are liking the story!! ❤️