Shattered Poems

If you only knew - Akia Rivers

Remember when you said it was you against the world?

Well it's me against myself.

That's never a war I win.

That's not something I can just push down a run from even though I want to.

Do you know the hell I go through every day to get out of bed and be productive?

Do you know the hell I go through to talk to people?

Do you know the hell I go through to tell you I love you?

You don't, so the day you wouldn't say it back was the day my heart stopped.

I thought maybe I'd try, maybe it'd be better this time. 

Maybe I'd be better, but it was all the same.

Day after day the pain in my chest hurts a bit more.

It's like salt on a wound.

I don't know if you didn't get my messages or didn't care.

You always asked why I don't say what I'm thinking.

I couldn't even if I wanted to.