Find me

Praying for something or someone to see my painful body, I just can’t stand this pain, I feel like something is taking my life away and I can’t do anything.

It’s amazing how things change so quickly, it’s just horrible, years ago someone tell me “if you´re happy, celebrate because it is temporal, when you are up you don’t know what is going to happen next, maybe you could get down, just in one second” and now I know it´s real.

Six weeks ago I had everything a teenage girl wants, I had a beautiful car, my parents that love each other and love me too, a lovely boyfriend, a big and beautiful home, my bests friends, and my new single was in the best 10 songs in the state, it was just dreamy.

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“Mom, come on!”I yelled so tired because I couldn’t sleep I was so nervous, is the first time I sing in LIVE in front  of 100,000 people it´s just so dreamy, maybe now that I´m a superstar I could know  One Direction, maybe we can make a duet.

They are 5 boys, all so cute and handsome, Harry Styles; he is just perfect, romantic, sexy and I love his crazy hair, Liam Payne; he sing so good, well all of them, he is sexy and so modest, Niall Horan; he is so cutie, I love him, he is so blondie, Zayn Malik; OMG he is the sexier of the group, no wait that’s Louis but it doesn’t matter, his black hair is so perfect, I love how he smile when he sing or when the fans scream his name, and finally my favorite Louis Tomlinson; I love his hair, his beautiful voice, the way he smile, how his eyes shine when his fans scream his name, I love that he always use suspenders or a stripes shirt  , I love that he have sense of humor, and think about girls not like the others, he think that we are persons not toys, he think that we have a heart and that’s why I love them very much.

“Mom, we’re going to miss the plain” I yelled again “Please hurry up”

I just can’t stop thinking about those suspenders and those green eyes.

“I’m going” She yelled, I’m a person that never mind what the other people say, that’s why I have a lot of friends, I’m an honest person even in the worst time, because there is a lot of liars, why it can be just one honest person?

“Please mom” I cried “This is important”

“Why?” She asks.

“Because this is my career, this is my life, maybe tonight One Direction decide to go, and hear me sing, and then they want to make a duet” I yelled, I just need this.

“Okay, okay, its fine” She said “I’m right here” She said right behind me.

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We get into the car, I´m so nervous, I just can´t, I just can´t be so nervous, maybe One Direction can´t go, a tear fall across my face, if I just fail?

“Honey what happen?” My mom asks, in this moment, I realise that my mom is beautiful, those green eyes, her brown long hair, her mouth with a perfect tone of pink like her chicks, now I know why everybody likes my mom.

“What if I fail?” I said, other tear fall down my chick.

“Baby, you´re perfect, everything is going to be fine, just don´t be nervous” She calm me down.

“Okay mom” I add.

In this moment I start hating my nerves, always is the same I get very nervous, but I always make it good, but I need to do something about that.

“We´re here” She scream, maybe she was nervous, like me. “England here we go”

“O my god, I can´t do this, Mom lets go home” I cry.

“No, I can´t let you miss the best time of your life” She said, with a serious voice. “You have to do this, and I would make this possible”

We wait like 4 hours, to go into the plain, it was so boring.