Demons In Us

Dear sweet friend.

TRIGGER WARNING

My eyes land on my only sense of relief.....my razor..

The only thing that could set me free from the hell of which I call life.

I walk over towards it , then my phone goes off.

As is picked it up without bothering to check the caller I.d. A low, too familier voice spoke the words that made me want to vomit with sheer fear..... " I'm coming home tonight. You're gonna get what you deserve you slut!

See you soon ."

At this point I was frozen in shock. My boyfriend was coming home.......shit...

His name is Zack.

The name I have grown to fear. I have done nothing but love him. And I still do. That's why I stay. But I'm not going to give you my pity details.

The itching feeling on my wrists, thighs and stomach didn't leave. I stood still re-playing his words over and over and over in my mind until it hit me.

I dropped my razor still fighting to urge to slice my skin open I quickly got dressed and ran towards the living room.

I sat on the sofa putting my hair up in a bun because usually when he is angry with me he pulls my hair so by doing so I'm lowering the odds and doing myself a favour.

I hear heavy footsteps outside of our flat's door.

Before I could register that it was him the door swung open and there he was. Drunk....

Angry....

Ready to hurt something...

Someone....

Me.

I wait for the yelling to begin. And as usual it does.

" YOU WHORE!

YOU DONT THINK THAT I KNOW YOU WENT OUT TODAY? Huh, slut??" His words slurred and his eyes were heavy and full of emptiness. I missed his blue/green eyes.

"WHAT DID I SAY BEFORE I LEFT YESTURDAY?" He digs his nails into my wrist which strangely slighty satisfies my urge just a bit.

When I didn't answer before i knew it I was being thrown at the glass table.

I fell and hit my head on the edge and I felt the blood slip down my forehead...

Then I knew that the Zack that I love was coming out.

"Babe I'm so sorry!" He said. I could tell he was sobbering up.

"Please stay. I'm sorry! Do you want me to take you to the hospital?!?!"

His beautiful eyes were brimming with tears...

With a simple nod I did my best to agree and with that all I could see was black.....__________________________________________

I really wanna know how I'm doing to far! How is it? This is my first so should I continue of just quit?