Demons In Us

Head to head

Maria's POV
'Fool'
'Disgusting'
'Do it'
'Pull the damned trigger'
I cover my ears and rock back and forth attempting to comfort myself. I hum a light tune quietly and continue my actions on the floor until I am calm.
Ever since I was younger I've calmed myself by humming my lullaby .
I stand quickly checking the front door to make sure Zack was still out. Shaking off my little anxiety attack I contemplate lunch and decide against it. Do I really need to get bigger? I think not .
'Fat'

Zack has been making me refer to him as sir and daddy and I'm so confused. He isn't so dominate. And I don't understand why he spanks me but hey it can't get much worse can it?
Putting my hair into a bun and walking over to the restroom I hear my phone ring.
From : Zayn
'Just checking up on you! :) haven't spoken to you since you ran off during coffee'

I choose to answer it.

To: Zayn
'Im okay! How are you? Oh yeah I'm so sorry about that. It was an emergency! I hope you can understand.'

I hop into the steamy shower and let the hot water wash my worries down the drain.

Zayn's POV
I think an afternoon walk would be nice.
Leaving that hectic house would be refreshing.. Not like I can focus outside either though. All I have been thinking about is Maria. She's just really important to me.

Crap we're out of cereal. I remember . I quickly find my way to the nearest shop and pick up some.
I pass a familiar face in the wine section and I decide to pass by to make sure it was him.
My face was red and my hands balled up in fists . Fuck the cereal. Zack is gonna get messed up. I stomp towards him but I feel my phone buzz.

From : Maria
'Can we meet for coffee at Hilary's?'

My feet halt as I realize I shouldn't pick a fight with him. She wouldn't want that. Bless her heart.
Turning on my heels and leave my previous items on the floor and walk out of the foodmart and to the humble coffee shop.

Maria's POV

"I'm going out", I shout hoping he won't put up a fight.
"Okay babe!" He yells back, and this is the perfect time to place my request.
I've been waiting for his mood to be a lot lighter before I try asking him to stop with the dominant act.

Waltz into our room and pull my most innocent face.
"Before I go, I've been needing to speak with you." I say quietly..
"...okay ?" He questions.
"So , um I'm not so comfortable with what you want me to refer to you as.." I ease
"Oh..I'm sorry . I didn't know. I was in a bad mood and had too many drinks , I was trying to test my limits. Sorry love " he gets up kisses me and walks out. "Have a nice day out " he adds.

I notice he smelled like..perfume. But I drop it and walk out of our flat door.
Well..that was..odd
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Bad habits are coming back so I'm trying my best to deal. So I'm sorry if I haven't been updating at the right times. I'll work harder