Random Writes

Questioning Love

I get so shy near this one guy. When I see him my palms get sweaty, my heart beats, my words get jumbled and quiet. This confuses me because I can talk to any girl without any problem, but this one boy does all this to me and more. what does it mean. It can't be love; I was always told that I would find a girl to love. 

We got partnered up for an english assignment, just us two. It was so awkward because I was forced to talk to him, but I just couldn't. He could tell I was nervous so he tried talking to me, so I talked but it came out jumbled. We were able to get through the assignment, but it was pretty awkward.

I guess he found me interesting because he kept talking to me and trying to hang out. To him I seemed pretty cool. He invited me to the movies once, but he brought some girl and they spent the whole time making out. For some reason I was jealous.

He ended up having to move away.When he left I started having those confusing thoughts for someone else, but once again it was a guy. The whole cycle would turn again, like from summer to winter. It starts out so happy then it slowly goes cold and dies.