My Life Is a Time Bomb

Prologue

Have you ever wondered what its like from God's view? or being omnipotent? I've never wondered that. The thought never crossed my mind. For I already know. Every molecule thats moving or dying, every hair thats on your head, every single birth and death in the world, all cramped in my brain. Im not God, but I am unnatural and human. Its sad, already knowing your death and how your very own life plays out. I cant change what I know, so I have to face the facts instantly. I cant even shove the thoughts away. I know that I will meet my wife on November 15 2020 and she will die on March 23 2057 due to a car accident. She will be beautiful and full of joy and we will have 3 kids Doddy, Gary, and Lue. I wish I didnt know this. I wish that I could let my life play out and believe I can change my future but I cant. My destiny is prepared for me and shown to me, mocking me. Showing me all the worst thing that can and will happen to me. I want to make it stop but thats all Im doing. Wanting. Wanting for it to end but it wont. Not until I die.My life is just a time bomb. Waiting to explode and burst. But Ive already seen the colors. The flashing lights making me go "Oooh" and "ahhh".The end will come. But its what happens in between thats worth writing about.