It isn't only something he escapes his mind with. Every bottle, and every can is taken in like is own personal life support.
You expect it to be water quenching that thirst, but alas it's not.
Its' poison he puts into his body, to drown his insides.
He would lie sleepless night after night shaking because it wasn't in his systemHe was terrified of his own reality, afraid of being alone, and facing the reason they all leave isBecause he has a problem.
He was filling this empty void was meaningless sex, and drinking all night.
Smoking cannabis, until the sun started to shine, till the stars woke at night.
Spending endless nights in jail for possession, putting up a front to act so tough, when in reality.
He just wanted someone to put up with his narcissistic psychopathic self, and love him for who he has worked to be.
He wants that person to be better than him in every aspect so he has something to work on himself.
He wants reason to live, but he has no problem smoking his cancer stick getting closer to death day by day.
