I am Lance Castillo. I work for Solaris Telecommunications Group. I am twenty-five years old. My family and career were my priorities in life. Once in my life, I met a girl named Sophie Sy who completely changed my viewpoints about life and about love.
It was nine years ago when I first saw her in the university consortium where I was studying as a College sophomore. Her angelic face captivated me and her sweet smile too. She is a petite, fashion icon as compared to the tall, simple me. But because I like her so much, I’ve gathered all my courage to get to know her better. I knew then that she was just studying in the other university near mine.
Our love story unfolded then, we are really an item. Everything works out just fine. But there are a lot of troubles that had arised from no where. Nothing I can do much about. My parents hindering our relationship, the pressures from my studies and if you don’t know, I am also a working student back then. I need to juggle different priorities in life so I needed to choose something I will give up on and I chose to give up my love for her. I play pretend that I began liking another girl. But it was all drama. I really love Sophie and I never wanted to let her go. I can feel her sincerity and the deep love she had for me.
It is true, a year after our relationship, I decided to finally end it all. She begged me to stay but I became like a deaf who cannot hear her plea. I simply walked away from her and her life. After that chaos, I kept on thinking every single day of how she has been after I left her. Some says she became depressed. On the worst case scenario, I’ve heard she became badly ill but I don’t want to visit her at the hospital. I cannot show my face to her. What have I done to her? I ask. My guilty conscience kept on killing me for years and years that passed by. And every single relationship I have been to never worked out. It seems that there always had been a problem. But I only found out lately, that the problem was me.
A few months back this year, I believe a miracle or a curse came to me. I saw Sophie again. A very beautiful, intelligent and professional looking woman, far from the cry baby I left eight years ago. She is very confident with her craft. She knows what she is doing. Perhaps God has his own way of getting back to me for the way I wronged her before. We’ve been partners in one of the joint projects of our company. What a playful experience it is, we are the tandem who should think about a great marketing plan for the exigency of both our companies.
We’ve journeyed back time through stories. We got a lot of catching up to do. I am surprised to know that Sophie is doing perfectly fine… too fine even without me. But it’s ok, it is my fault anyway. We’ve been out of town to do some ocular at Bohol and there as I was given a chance to be with her again, I’ve seen how more beautiful she has become inside and out. I slowly felt my heart melting for her again and I wonder if she will give me another chance.
Thankfully, the chance I’ve been asking for has been granted. It seems that this meeting became more of a blessing than a curse. I guess, God wanted me to correct the mistakes I have done in the past. And I am really thankful I was given that chance. I swear to myself that I won’t hurt Sophie this time. I will never let go of her. I wished so hard that everything will return to what it was before the day I left her but I was too hopeful for that.
Ofcourse, come with the years that passed by, I found out that Sophie and I had already grown apart. There are a lot of changes with the way she moves, the way she held my hand, and the way she smile at me. I cannot tell what was lacking but I can tell there is really something missing. She said she never wanted to repeat the mistakes she might have done in the past during our relationship. I don’t know what to feel. Should I be saddened or should I be happy? But even if we had gotten back, I feel that instead of growing closer, she moved even farther from me.
