Wallflower (GirlxGirl)

Chapter Three

Dear Chris,

It's Sunday. I hate Sundays. We always go to church, and Chris, you know how terrible church is. I used to go to you every Sunday, remember? I would tell you about church, and we would laugh together at the stupid, homophobic people there. You always made things better, Chris. Even when everybody in church said those horrible stuff about gays, you would laugh at them and tell me they just don't understand, that one day the both of us will get away from this stupid town.

We had it all planned out, Chris. But you just had to go and ruin it.

I can't be mad at you, though. I understand why you... you know.

I never understood how could you stay so strong, and for so long. All this hate.. I can't imagine how hard it was for you.

I just hoped that I made you stronger. That I made it less hard for you. That you thought I was worth it.

But I guess I wasn't. And it's okay. I understand.

But why didn't you just leave, when we first met? You were 18. You could.

Did you stay for me?

Would it be terribly selfish of me to hope you did?

If I die now, do you think I'll be with you?

It's just so tempting to stop this suffering called "life". No one would care.

Nobody loves me anymore. You were the only one.

After all, I'm just a wallflower.

Casey.

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Wow. Long time no update. Really sorry, school and other stuff got in the way...

I'm not gonna update Nothing Personal yet though. Gonna focus on this one for a while.

BTW, if you find any mistakes, you're more then welcome to point them out in the comments :)

So, I hope you liked this... Umm.... Have a nice day.