The Impossibility of Loving Another You --ON HOLD--

Chapter 4: Meeting Who Knows Who

Chapter 4: Meeting Who Knows Who

You know the feeling of crying just by bumping into a person? Well, I'm doing that right now. And trust me, I look like a total idiot right now.

The hand in front of me disappeared, and in exchange, a face suddenly appeared. He's blurry. Maybe from my sudden tears.

"A-are you okay?" He said, while stuttering. How cute.

I chuckled and looked at his face. He's looking at me curiously and worriedly.. and.. is he actually looking at me weirdly?

Well, I can't blame him, I suddenly spilled my tears just by bumping into him.

A hand came up to my face. Its this person's hand. He wiped my tears with his thumb and smiled at me. Maybe this is his attempt to cheer me up. I smiled at him weakly.

His hand.. its warm. Just like.. Jayce's hand. Warm as his hand.. When Jayce wiped away my tears just like this yesterday.. I can't help but feel like his warmth won't come back to me again.

"H-hey" he said worriedly.

"Hmm?" I told him innocently.

"Why are you crying?"

That's when I realized that my tears were flowing freely.

"I-I don't kno...w.." I said as I tried to stop my tears from falling.

*Ding Diiiiing*

I heard the bell ringing, and tried to stand up. But I couldn't. My knees felt weak. I feel weak. I don't know even know why.

Suddenly, I was already standing with a hand wrapped around my wrist. And I found myself running with a boy I don't even know as the wind wrapped my face with the cool air drying my tears.

But heck, it won't dry up cause new ones come out of my eyes.

Why am I even crying?

I let myself be pulled by the guy as I held myself up and as I put myself together. But sadly, it wasn't working.

Due to my tears covering my vision, I actually don't know where we are heading.

"There's my next class." I said, pointing at a room ahead of us. He glanced at me to see where I'm pointing at. We slowed down our pace, but frankly, I don't want to go to my class anymore.

I know. I'll see him. My next class is with him. I don't know how I should face him. I don't even know what I'll do in class since I cant be with him anymore. I dont know how I'll walk in the class or where I'll even sit.

It was just yesterday when he broke my heart. Yesterday, when he kissed that girl in front of me. Yesterday, when he told me he doesn't love me anymore. Yesterday, when my world fell apart and I had to push myself to stand up straight and accept it. Yesterday, when I realized it was really hard to let go of someone who meant the world to me.

Maybe Sabrina already took my usual spot besides him.

Sabrina.

Yeah, that's that's b*tch's name. Pretty right? I don't know but I feel that my name's inferior to hers.

Amiel... Sabrina...

My heart tightened as we got nearer to the door. As we were only a few steps away, the guy's grip on me tightened and his pace got a bit quicker. I matched with his pace.

Finally..

There's the roo--

We passed by the room with our pace slowly getting faster by the second.

"H-hey! My room's over there!"

"So?" He said as he gave me a glance from behind him.

"S-so? Are you serious!? I'm gonna miss class!" I said in exasperation.

"Its not like you even want to go to your class." He said in a matter-of-factly tone. "And its not like you'd want to go to class looking like that."

I didn't reply. I actually felt offended by his words. I glanced at the windows of the classrooms and saw my reflection. He's right.

I look completely and utterly stupid.

I look like Rudolph the red nose reindeer. My eyes are a bit red and my cheeks have a tint of red and are still wet from the tears I didn't bother to dry off.. Its obvious that I've been crying and I hate myself for it.

Plus, I look like a hyperventilating walrus. Though I don't even know what those look like. I just feel like I look like them.

Finally, we passed every window wherein I can see my ugly reflection. And the guy who just held onto me, stopped. I looked pass him and saw that we were at the back part of the school.

Then and there, I finally questioned myself, what the hell was I doing with a guy I just met? Why was I letting him take me to God knows where. Am I really that depressed?

Actually, I am.

When I let the fact I'm with a guy I don't know sink in, I took a step back really slowly.

But unfortunately for me, my shoes made a freaking loud noise.

He looked back at me curiously. Though he didn't notice my pitiful attempt of escape.

He pointed towards the back of the school. I furrowed my brows 'cause I only saw his built. He was blocking the view. I tilted my head and peeked past him and saw the same view. But when I looked a bit more to the left, where he was pointing, I saw a beat-up looking car.

"Let's go." He said as he pulled me again.

"Where?" I asked curiously. I know, I should get away. But I won't even know where to.

Home? Where no one's around and I'll just cry all day? Class? Where he's there flirting with Sabrina? Walk around aimlessly? Where I'll just look like a wasted idiot crying all alone?

Or..

Should I go with this guy?

Who I barely know? Who might take me somewhere and do something, God knows what, to me? Who'll add an absent to my attendance. Who might just make me forget about everything, even just for a day.

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