Body Party: Confessions of a Dancer

Chapter 7

Was this how it was supposed to end? Am I really hurt? I knew he would choose her before me. Scenes of that night began to replay my head.

"You're leaving me because of my agent is Brady?" "No because I want my kid to grow up with a father. My son will know who I am! I grew up practically without my dad! He didn't have a choice because he died. I have a choice and I'm choosing Sadie and my son. It's nothing dealing with you and your agent."

I stood there in the living room. I felt my face getting wet. I looked up to see where water was coming from. I then realized I was crying. Jay chose Sadie. My worst nightmare has came to life.

"Jay congratulations on your son. But go FUCK yourself! I dealt with you for 6 months and your bullshit behind it, and you come to me after I've been by your side through your failing marriage, held your hand at court when you were getting a divorce, and how many nights when we were at the hospital with your baby mama?! But I get the short end because I was being a great girlfriend."

He looked away from me and walked upstairs. "Now you're walking away from me? You know that I been through a lot of shit with you Jay and you want to call this off? Call this off? You can still be in your son life but you don't necessarily have to be with Sadie. Why?"

I heard glass breaking. I went upstairs and he threw a wine glass that we had on the bar in the den. I went over and started helping him pick up the glass. "I'll pay the condo off, I'll move back in with Sadie." He stood up and went in our bedroom packed his clothes and left, without a single word. I sat on the floor. Lost for words.

Knowing that it's only been a few months, it still hurts knowing the guy I loved.... The one I chose... Left me for someone else... His wife that he divorced.

Realizing that I was focusing on that night made me forget I had to do my solo in front of Jay.

"Kris your go." Jay said. I stood to my feet. "I know it's a solo but I really want to partner up."

"Kris, you chose to do a solo. How in the world can you do a duet without someone else?" "Just see. Hunter, you're ready?"

"What song?" Mac the DJ asked. "Maybe You're Right by Miley Cyrus." The song began to play and we began dancing. We been working on this dance since the song leaked.

Jay always wanted to perform to this song. His eyes got big. As the dancing went on, I felt better. I felt more of my old self again. It wasn't until everybody started clapping when I realized that the song were over.

"Great job you two." Jay said. "Let's move on." He said. I walked out to go to my locker to check and see if Brady has called.

* 3 missed calls from Mr. Brady*

I went into my call log and called him back. No answer.

"Hey Brady, this is Kris. Give me a call." I said. "Agent wont answer you now?" "Jay, you said we're over so no more personal conversations." I said walking out.

"You think letting him being your agent is all so lovely right? Well he'll screw you over like any other of his clients." Jay said grabbing my arm. "He has groupies so don't try to fall for him like you fell for me." He walked away.

"You wouldn't let me walk away from the beginning! How else did I get this deep? You had to lead me on!" He turned around. "I led you on? How did I? Tell me."

"I've never felt this way about anyone not even Sadie, so that's not leading me on? Trying to have sex with me the night we went to your house. Did have sex with me the second time. But it's amazing how I caught feelings and it's my fault. I really wish you pull that stick out of your ass." I grabbed my keys and left out of the locker room and left.

I started driving. Not knowing where I was going until.... I ran a red light.

All I seen where lights flashing, bright lights flashing. Am I dead? It felt like I was screaming but my body stood still. I started screaming but no one could hear me, but I could hear them fine.

"Sir, she's not breathing." Yes, I'm breathing I'm looking right at you. But then I noticed I seen myself lying on the ground. I am dead. I felt as if I was gasping for air. I could no longer breathe. I ran until I dropped to the ground gasping for air that I couldn't find in time. I couldn't breathe. I felt numb. I felt nothing.

"Sir, I have a pulse." The paramedic said. I sprung up gasping for air that I been looking for. "Am I dead?" I screamed out. "Ma'am, ma'am, you're alive calm down." I looked at him yet still gasping for air. "Kris? Kris!!!" I hear my name. It was Brady. He ran to me and grabbed me and hugged me.

"I thought you were gone. Don't scare us like that anymore. Okay?" He demanded. "Brady, I'm so sorry I didn't know the light had turned red. I just thought about Jay. Where's Jay? Is he here too?" I looked around for him. "No, he's not. Kris. He's not coming."

I then knew it was over between Jay and I.