The Diary!

Doubts?

-phonecall-

Violetta's POV

" I don't know Fran , i 'm afraid of breaking his heart ... And also what if i regret it afterwards "

I explain to Fran on the phone , i called her cause i was freaking out

I don't know if i'm ready to move in with Leon yet, I'm terrified right now

" Well...Violetta don't leap , maybe it'll be great , me and Diego live together and it's going really great , except for that damn dog but other than that , it 's amazing living with him, i think it's gonna be the same with you and Leon , stop worrying "

"But were you this scared ?" I ask her quickly

" Um..no" she says

"See?" I say

"But you don't know how it's gonna be , i say , don't back out now , you'll hurt his feeling and maybe you'll regret it later sweetheart ,you'll see once you're moved in together it isn't such a big deal , you'll get to appreciate the small things , like when he makes coffee in the morning , or that you get to wake up next to him every morning , it's really wonderful" she says and i can tell she's smiling

" Yeah , but me and Leon are not like you guys ...when we fight , we always break up , he gets upset really easily and i'm very stubborn, you are right , we did break up a lot and i don't see why this time would be different "i explain to her

" You guys are adults now , you need to work things out, i mean it's clear that you can't stay away from eachother , not even two seconds , so work it out ! Don't lie to him , you should've told him that you were having doubts and you could've talked and figure stuff out .. It won't work if you're not honest " she said bluntly

"This makes me feel like a total grown up and it's really freaking me out " i said honestly

" Tell him that . It's normal to feel this way , this the first time that you're moving on your own...or not with family anyway , don't worry "

" Okay then , i should talk to him , i just need a few hours to get my words together , i'll call you later , thank you for everything amiga " i say

"No problem , i'm happy to help " she said and i hung up

-1 hour later -

Leon's POV

I enter Violetta's house and i see her playing the piano

" Hey !" I smile at her and close the door

"Hi! What are you doing here ?" She stops playing and smiles at me and puts her hands on her lap and I head towards her

" Beautiful melody " i say and kiss her and then sit down next to her on the piano bench

" Thank you " she smiled nervous

" I just decided to come by , i missed you " i say and smile at her

" Oh ." She nervously smiles again

Violetta's POV

" Actually , i came by to apologize about yesterday , I overreacted ... and i'm sorry ." He said in an honest tone

" About that ..." I say nervously

" You were having doubts ?" He asks angry again

" Yes but-" i try to say but he looks inhaling loudly and purses his lips

"I was -" i say but he cuts me off again

"You know what Violetta ? I never even understand you anymore -" he shouts

" Leon! Listen to me ! I was talking , let me finish my damn sentence , you didn't even listen to me , you gotta stop being so sensitive , where is this gonna take us ? You're acting like a fucking child ! " i shout at him

He doesn't say anything and he doesn't look at me

"What i was going to say , is that i had doubts , because this is big change , it's normal for me to feel like that , but i'm willing to work through it , what i'm not willing to work through ,is you having these outbursts of anger Leon !" I say in a loud tone , trying to make him understand

He doesn't say anything

I lean in to kiss him and he doesn't move

I press my lips onto his and he barely kisses me back , he's standing straight as brick

"I'm sorry " he softly says while i'm kissing him

I stop and put my hands on his face and press my forehead against his looking into  his eyes

" I shoud trust you more , i know you don't like it when i'm jealous , or i accuse you of stuff before even listening to you , i thought i had my shit together but i don't , i'll work on it , i promise " he says

" No .. We'll work on together , i don't want you to go out of your way to be the ' perfect ' boyfriend , i want you to be the same , all i'm asking is that you give me some time and don't get offended if we're not on the same page " i say

" Deal " he agrees and kisses me again

We pull away and he turns towards the piano

" So , what are we playin'?" He asks and puts his hands on the piano and starts playing my papersheet

"It's beautiful " he says while playing it

" It's a song that i'm working on " i say quite shy

I see him spot the lyrics in front of me

" Sing " he says