does he lie to me?
Does he say he is gone when really hes not?
he says he doesnt judge but really is that the truth?
mari was sitting in her room, in fetal position crying her eyes out. She had seen something she thought was not meant for her eyes. She had gotten a message late around 11 pm. she had read it but did not believe it was for her. it was sent by a close friend who always left specifically.
at 10 at 12 at 11
she stopped keeping track. she had gotten herself worked up greatly and couldnt keep herself controlled anymore. no one else was able to hear her bawling to herself. she kept asking herself petty questions she could not answer herself. she simply worsened her current state, more tears, more thoughts. this cycle continued, more tears more thoughts more tears. its like she had no control over her ideas and simple believed that they were true.
this went on for hours, she occupied herself but kept crying over it. she wanted to stop crying knowing it was probably nothing. but what could she do? he was already gone and he wouldnt answer her questions for a while. so she instead layed there in a ball, tears streaming and waited.
