Chains

I know how it feels...

The next day was a blur too. Luke didn't talk to me and I cried a lot. I missed her so much!! And now it has all come back. After Ry's death, I have been miserable. I even isolated myself for the day.
If only there was someone to comfort me...
Luke was mad at Me, Sadie was busy with the funeral, Rihanna...well...Rihanna was the part of the funeral. That's pretty much it.
Ray was a guy I met only once.
Alexia was a very busy person.
Why is it so hard to forget something??? Or rather someone.

Later that night, I sat outside the A.G.A with an old blanket. I set it on the grass near a clear patch of land and watched the sky with beautiful stars. Alysa and I used to do that a lot except we never found so many stars in the city. I held her picture in my hand. "Why did you leave me alone in this horrible situation??" I asked the picture but it never answered and it never will. I have to understand that talking to pictures which can't listen to you is pointless unless a voice answers.
"That is so not true..." I heard a voice. I got up and turned around to see......
Luke.
"What are you doing here??" I asked bitterly. I have turned into a demon!! "Look...I am..."
"Sorry?? Do you think sorry will fix all of this??"
"I know its not enough but -"
"But what Luke?? Do you think saying sorry will cause all those horrible feelings to melt away?? The sadness to die??"
"Maybe......." He said half smiling at his kind-of-joke. I remained quiet waiting for him to talk. "I am sorry, I know how it feels..."
"You know how it feels??? Great!! Now you know everything!!! You know how it feels when your one and only sister dies, or when you are accused for nothing or when you leave your family for some stupid boy who doesn't give a damn about you!!!" I blurt everything out. Yay!! Another night ruined!!! "No..but I at least know how it feels when someone so precious to you dies......." He said sadly.
Just ignore!! I turned back and lied down watching the stars and trying to keep calm.
"Hey!! Alysa?? I guess you are Alyssa, you are very pretty!!" I saw Luke talking to her.
"Please do me a few favours...will you??
Please take care of Rihanna!! She is amazing and she gave up everything for me, Sadie and Lexi. Tell her I love her...won't you??" He said. I couldn't help but sob a bit. I wish she was here...
" Also tell your dear little sister that you will always be with her...in here."he said patting his chest where his heart lied. "Too dramatic?? I think so too....one last thing... Tell her that I am sorry....." He said. I started to cry. I got up, turned back and hugged him tight. "Alysa and I can't breath!!!" He said which made me laugh a bit. I pulled away. "Alysa can I ask you something??? Will you go on a date with me???" I gave Luke a puzzled look.  "Okay...I will ask her..." He smiled. "Andy....will you get out of your busy agent life for one day and go on a friendly date with me??" He asked. "Yes!!" I exclaimed. "But for now, let's just watch the stars!!" I said. He lied down beside me and we watched the stars all night. "Don't forget, the date is on Sunday!!" He said and I just smiled. "Luke I am sorry for doing this to you..blurting everything out in the hospital.....i ...was all tensed up....rihanna reminded me of Ly-Ly..." I said. "Its okay......I know what it feels like....." Rihanna you were amazing and you gave away so much for Luke, Alexia and Sadie!! Just do me a favour, take care of Alysa. "I know how it feels too....."