One gloomy day, when things were boring for me. I decided to go out of the classroom . I sat at the chairs outside and savored the noise of my co-students .
I look up the sky. It is clear blue. Heaping the calmness and peace. I put my earphones in my ears. Listening 'I hate you. I love you' by gnash ft. Olivia Obrien. I like this song coz it hits me.
*sigh*
My mind became nimble when I saw a man figure walking, laughing and smiling with his friends. His presence kills me, remembering he won't love me back.
'Is it hard to love me? ' i asked my self while staring at his back.
' Actually,no ' i unplug my earphone and look at the person who owns that voice.
' Oh. Hi bes ' i greet her. She's my bestie. She sat beside me.
' Thinking about him again? ' she asked.
' Obviously. Yes. ' i replied and look at his back again.
' It hurts bes. He wont love me as much i love him. Am i look idiot for loving him? ' i asked her while looking at the guy i love.
' No. You're not idiot. You're just Loving. Dont worry its not bad ' she said while smiling at me.
' Yeah. Loving. Loving a person who dont love me back is the worst thing i did ' i said. I feel some liquid flowing over my cheeks.
' Dont worry. Im here. Im willing to be with you forever. So wipe your tears and fight like a warrior hahahaha' she said. Im so bless that God gave me a bestie like her.
' Ok ok haha ' I hug her tightly ehile wiping my tears.
I hate him. I Love him.
I hate you because i love you.
I hate myself for loving you.
I hate myself because Im hoping someday you'll be mine.
Im just fooling myself haha.
Just like in the songs chorus'
' I hate you I love you
I hate that i love you
Dont want to , but i cant put
Nobody else above you
I hate you I love you
I hate that i want you
You want her, you need her And Ill never be her '
