Tired of The Tirades

Strong Words

Trust. Such a strong word. Who do we trust and who we don't. From a young age we've been listening to "Don't trust strangers." Then we begin not to trust anyone. We sit and think and think about who we should bestow our trust in. And at the end of it all its the wrong person. You tell them everything and then the entire school knows about it on mere seconds. There goes that reputation you've spent so much time and energy building. One word and boom. Everything has come crashing down.

Reputation. Such a strong word. We give our everything to keeping it up. School, college, office, society. It never ends does it? You keep working and keep falling and keep getting up and keep falling. Then you give up. You sigh once and that's it. You don't care anymore, but you do. You don't show it though. Everybody assumes society doesn't own you anymore. Deep down it still does, doesn't it? You'd do anything to be worthy.

Worth. Such a strong word. It affects us to no end what we mean to someone. There's always that feeling that you are absolutely worthless. Like you don't mean anything to anybody. And in that little pity party you ignore the ones that's actually like you. Why do we always run after the ones that don't give a fuck about your existence. Every single time, isn't it? We love people who don't love us and ignore people who do.

Love. Such a strong word. You wouldn't say it to anyone who doesn't light up your world. And even then, even after all that you're still heartbroken. You try so so hard to get their affection but always end up getting hurt. And you cry for days and days and then you move on. It takes you time, but you go ahead with your life.

Life. Such a strong word. You have to strive to survive. Wake everyday just to face all those people who have done nothing but put you down. Ruined everything you had to live for. And you feel like a soldier leading a battalion into an attack. Alone, holding nothing but a shield to protect you against every abuse hurled at you.

Abuse. Such a strong word. Reason as much as you like but the only thing that brings your anger out is hurling  a few "fucks" at whoever is in front of you. And you scream and cry and sigh and eventually give up. Then you scream again. It doesn't always have to be the fault of a simple spectator who has to bear the wrath you feel towards someone else.

Wrath. Such a strong word. Absolute and utter annoyance and anger towards someone or a situation. Brings out the worst in us, doesn't it? How many times have you just blown up in someone's face for the tiny reason that something they said reminded you of something horrible from the past. Or how many times have you've made an huge issue out of small things. A fucking skyscraper out of a shanty. Because the mountain doesn't exist anymore and moles are almost extinct.