Aphmau: Phoenix Drop High (a Laurmau fanfiction, roleplayed in MCPE!)

Part 16: To Forget

P.O.V. Aphmau

I miss him... I miss him so much...
It's been around a month now. We lost contact, but I can't get him out of my head... I guess this is how it feels
to be madly in love with someone. And you know what they say: you don't realize how much you depend on something once you loose it. Now I know that I needed him. I feel like my heart slowly gets ripped apart. The scars hurt the most... The memories. I see them again and again, but they are fading away. I wish I was there, safe, in his arms. I miss the warm feeling of his tickling breath in my neck, his comforting smile and dreamy eyes...
But maybe... Maybe we are just not meant. Maybe fate doesn't want us to be together, maybe future has other plans for us in mind... Should I accept that? What if I don't want to? Can I fight against what is meant for me? Do I have the power to keep remembering him, to not forget what we had? I don't know... Maybe time will change how I feel. Or what he feels. Maybe he has already forgotten about me, maybe I'm just a fading memory...
Why is love so complicated? Is easy love even possible? If it is, I would prefer that instead of this... I think.
I should just try to forget... To keep him out of my head, to live on. To discover a new world and follow my fate. I can't wait for him forever. He'll forget. I should too...

P.O.V. Laurance

I miss her... I miss her so much...
The past month were consisted out of oceans of tears, millions of thoughts, but especially hurting memories. All our conversations showed up in my head, repeating over and over. The smallest details and the weirdest words. They all appeared in my mind. I can't fight it, they keep coming up. It doesn't matter how much I loved her smile, her laugh and her pretty eyes, I think I'm going crazy because of them. I need to get her out of my head, focus on something else. I know that a part of me doesn't want to forget, it only wants to remember more. It wants to remind me of her and keep my love for until we meet again. But I can't. I don't know if we'll ever meet again, but if we will I know it won't be soon. And even if I won't forget... She will. She's not the person who doesn't want to remember, but she has to go on with her life. She will get a boyfriend, live a normal life without me in it. She won't need me... Maybe that's just how life works. To forget and only remember the good things. Maybe that's how it works.
I should just try to forget... To keep her out of my head, to live on. To discover a new world and follow my fate. I can't wait for her forever. She'll forget. I should too...