polyamorous

intro

I find myself walking into an unknown place. A place I have never been before. It is full if things I have never experienced before. I continue walking through this place passing horrible memories and experiencing my terrifying fears. I let out a big scream waking myself up from the dream. My forehead is wet with sweat and my body is hot. I find my self breathing heavily like I had just ran a marathon. My room is dark. My window are full of the night sky, spakling with stars. I look at the moon finally realizing how dry my mouth and throat are. I slowly pull off the my blankets and start to get out of bed. I start to walk down stairs to get a drink of water. I use the railing like I did as a child. I hold the railing like I hold my insecurities. Not letting them go. I reach the kitchen before I can finish my thoughts. I grab a glass out of the cabnet and start to fill it with ice cold water from the sink. My mom must have her the commotion because she finds me the kitchen drinking my water. I can feel my face starting to get hot as she looks at me. Why am I embarrassed? I have no idea but before I can say anything she does. "Jennifer. What do you think you are doing up so late?" shes asks in a tone that not even a little bit comforting to me. "Well, um, I was thirsty." I respond. "Really?" My mother asks pushing on. She's insistant that I am hiding something. "Yes. I was simply thirsty." I respond to her as she turns around walking away without saying another word. I let out a little sigh of relief because I am hiding something.