Just like we once were(Various!Haikyuu x reader)

Old Scars and New Friends- chap IV

K, so just a little statement...I'm aware of that this is shit but I was aboard so I couldn't update, and so now I just wanted to update as soon as possible for you guys + Its like in the middle of the night soooo...

!mistakes will be made!

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A warmth greated me shining down on me with weak pale beams.

...weekend...

Im not a morning person I never was, I just don't see the charm with waking up, trying to comb down your bed head before trying to find at least some at least somewhat clean clothes before, at least In my case, running late too school.

The weekend is where you're supposed to relax right? Well. to day I just woke up feeling like shit.

Some times you don't need a reason to feel like shit, but I couldn't help but think that I may just have a reason this time.

I opened my eyes shifting my lazy gaze over the empty room, a few small rays of sun had made its way through the curtains and now beemed down at my skin.

So empty...

The room was filled with mainly scattered clothes but also a few note books and occasionally small peaces of paper or scrap here and there, making the whole room a mess.

So messy but so empty.

That exact feeling ended up still haunting me even tho I tried my best shaking it of by waking up eating break fast and so on.

nope still there.

Auntie had called late yesterday saying she probably wouldn't be home at all for a while. Not that she would make it feel less empty anyways... I could tell she was trying her best to make me open up more to her. I didn't want to. I mean of course I didn't we barely knew etch other but she made it sound as if she had known me for her whole life. Well maybe she did know me in terms of that the knew that I at least existed.

I turned to put my plate in the dishes.

Letting out a sight. I closed my eyes, my mind slowly wandered away, away to a place and time oh so familiar...

~flashback~
It was late when the phone had rung, maybe even close to midnight. They had been on the way home, both of them. Not together...but at two different trains both heading towards (home city). At first it was a shock but after a while It just seemed to become more and more surreal. I had know something was wrong, they where hours late..but...they where never late. My hand had lifted the phone almost instinctively to my ear. I don't think I ever will forget that moment.

It was as if my blood had turned into stone freezing my body completely. Petrified.

No tears just completely still with my face in a shocked but in some way a life less expression.

...the phone slipped out of my hands...

*CRASH!*

I jerked back to reality. On the floor now lay a broken plate.

'calm down, calm down, you need to calm down, just slow down and take it easy'

I tried but didn't succeed. Tears threatened to fall from the corners of my eyes.

I quickly decided I needed to take a shower to calm my nerves.

Isn't weard how sometimes your mind plays tricks on you even though you think you're in control, you never really are...