Story Of My Life

CHAPTER 2

Surfing the net one day I came across "Sexual Harassment" knowing a little about it before, I researched on it; coming across so many other topics including pedophiles. Reading and scrolling through so many sites and images which were having drastic similarities to my relationship with Brandon that then, did I realize that I was a victim of sexual harassment in the most peculiar way.

Days past with this thought and guilt in me, having this new little brother at home was distracting enough though. I could not approach my mother and tell her this because I never realized what it was until it was too late. That year for the summer we travelled to Sri Lanka, us siblings being only kids not realizing there were problems that needed our parents' attention.

I always noticed that my mom and her in laws were just never in good terms, like ever which seemed so strange to me since I was very loving to them as they to me. My mom and them, especially my grand mom, would always fight, shout at each other like cats and dogs. And I always wondered why couldn't they just be happy, but sometimes things are just meant to be the way they are which was something I only understood later on in life. There was a situation which occurred with my dad's married younger sister which spiraled unhappiness throughout our whole family, sinking them into places and thoughts which were unthinkable. No one ever told us what really happened since we were kids in front of their eyes but I think that I was catching on to what was going on pretty well even if I had never mentioned or asked anything.

Cheating – the main and only cause to a ruination to a family may it be infidelity or to your parents, family and friends. But that was the cause of it after all. Making our once happy family – atleast happy in my eyes – break and scatter in to different pieces like shattered glass. I still think my aunt would sit and imagine what her life would have been if she hadn't followed into her desires much, how easy and happy her now disoriented life was. I hoped and I really did that she would make the right decisions from now onward because she was really loving to me, more like a sister than an aunt that I found myself so much similar to her regretting the thought after what she had done.

I still remember, my dad being broken from what his only sister did, not realizing whether to face the light or hide in the dark, to listen to my mom and stay or go on the next flight and be with his sister for the sin she committed, and to this day I know he regrets his decision to stay. He thinks life would have turned out different for his whole family if he had gone analyzed the situation and tried to help her understand and come out of it. But I think everything is pre-destined, written from before by the One sitting up above the clouds and I also know that the decision He makes would only benefit us even if it hurts us more than ever. No life or family is always happy or perfect, each have their own problems and obstacles which have to be crossed. And I know that in the subtlest way this circumstance made him move closer to God.

We didn't know the difficulties waiting ahead us. Life was about to get way bumpier for this family of five.

It was the end of the year 2010, and in 3 months Grade 7 would be over. It was February, a week after my youngest brother's birthday. I was scrolling through my Facebook when a notification popped, it was a text from Brandon asking me how I am. I was completely baffled that this guy had the audacity to text me and ask me how I am when he knew clearly what he had done to me and put me through at such a young age. I had all this pent up anger towards this person that I just couldn't fathom but at the same time I didn't have the courage to text him and question him of what he had done, and now everything just came in a rush. The simple text "How are you?" was the most difficult question I had to answer for that moment, but I gathered myself and told him that I was fine. The text went something like this ─

Brandon: Hey, how are you?

Shanila: I'm fine and you?

Brandon: I'm good! Was just thinking about you actually so I texted you.

Shanila: Good to know that there is a heart in you :)

Brandon: What's that supposed to mean Shanila? I don't get it!

Shanila: Nothing, forget it. So how's life there?

Brandon: Ok, not like back over there though. What did you men by what you said before?

Shanila: If u really want to know then I can only ask how could you?

Brandon: How could I what Shanila, why the fuck are you talking like this?

Shanila: Do you remember what you used to do to me? What you did to me Brandon? How could you! You knew I knew nothing of that shit and u still did it. I was a kid for God sake Brandon, a bloody kid.

Brandon: Oh, you still remember that. I was a kid to Shan and I really didn't know what had gotten into me to be such an ass, I'm sorry!

Shanila: Sorry, how dare you even apologize, Brandon what you did was disgusting, so very disgusting.

Brandon: Don't act as if u didn't like it Shan!

Shanila: I know I did, but that was before I knew what was actually going on Brand. I felt like an idiot afterwards, it's not fair.

Brandon: Shan, look it happened between us and I'm sorry, I really am.

Shanila: I feel like slapping you, God!

Brandon: Then slap me!

Shanila: Ha! Very funny. You're all the way in another country, how the hell can I even slap you! The next time we meet, I swear that's how I'm going to greet you. And I'm swearing this.

Brandon: Ok, slap me: P. I won't stop you since I deserve it! But to ask you, has anyone else touched you? I'm just asking.

Shanila: No, of course not. After knowing what the heck it actually is, there is no way I'm going to do it unless it's by my own will you jerk!

Brandon: Woah! You have grown up haven't you, with the cussing and all.

Shanila: Shut up! Thank god it's out now. You really don't know for how long I wanted to talk about this to you.

Brandon: Well its good then, better out! How's everyone there?

Shanila: Brand, I honestly don't want to talk to you but if you must know everyone's fine.

Brandon: Haha, still with the temper I see. Cool, I'll text you some other time. Bye, take care :)

Shanila: Bye :) 

The relief I felt after this was indescribable, it honesty felt like a huge weight had been lifted from my shoulders. Somehow I felt like finally I had a clean slate, even if the sins were not intentional from my side. After a week, I hit puberty; funny how everything was cleared up before!

Little did I know that my own self-control after I hit puberty would drop too low. And my once clean slate would be too dirty that it wouldn't be easy to clean off.

(AN:// I know my content is quite less compared to most books, but keep in mind this a story of the girl's life. Parts which she can remember she types down in this book. And  I'm so so sorry, I know that I keep changing the name of the protagonist , but I just cant keep making my mind up and hopefully - no, surely - this will  be the last time that I will xP.  I hope so far its great for you guys!! Love you guys loads, please vote and comment xoxo. )