lately
i've been different
and i know
that you've noticed.
lately
my words have
been harsher
than usual.
and i'm sorry.
and i want
to stop.
but it's hard
and i don't
know how.
you can call me
a bad friend.
an enemy.
a nemesis.
and i will
forgive you,
because i know
it's what i
deserve.
i've been
treating you
worse
and i'm so
so
sorry.
kindness swells
within me.
i want to
praise you.
i want to
encourage you.
i want to
lift you up,
not bring you down.
but i know
that's all i'll do.
i didn't tell you
for the sake of sounding silly,
but it's not you.
it's me.
i want you
to be happy.
and
who knows?
maybe,
someday,
i will change.
and then i will return.
and i will love you
forever
and ever
as i do now.
but presently
i am not ready
to treat you
as you deserve.
i am sorry.
my
dearest,
goodbye.
