Oasis: Time Flies...

It's Getting Better (Man!!)

In the moment it was just me, my wife and our two children. It was us and that's all.

We didn't invite anyone else to the birth of our son, not even our family. I was sick and tired of the media furor that had always followed us around, this moment was ours.

Kate couldn't've looked any more beautiful than she did as she held my newborn son, as a Mam she was radiant. It'd been bloody hard work but he was here and he was ours.

"Are you standing by your name?" Kate asked, oblivious to the fact that I'd been lost in her beauty.

"Yeah, his name's Jude."

Our history was intertwined with our love of the Beatles and I happened to be perpetuating it. I wanted to name my son after the song Hey Jude! and that's exactly what we were going to do. It had nothing to do with the media or our band.

"Hey, our little Jude." she spoke to him.

She didn't like the name too much but she'd chosen Lucy this was my turn. She never objected but I knew she wasn't keen.

"What are the lads doing?"

The lads, formally known as my band, the band I belonged to. "No idea..."

"Well are they coming? Did you tell them about jude?" she asked expectantly.

"No, they don't know, yet." At all, we'd spent most of the pregnancy recording the new album after that we parted ways, the right time never came.

"Why not? Don't you want this?" she questioned, hurt.

"This is all I want, I haven't told them cos, you know what recording's been like."

"I don't cos you never once invited me to any of them."

"They wouldn't let anyone who wasn't directly involved anywhere near the studio this time."

"Bet that never applied to Noel or Liam's celebrity girlfriends."

"Especially them, things were tense enough." That was the truth, she had to accept the truth.

We were discharged from hospital. Driving home I couldn't decide if I was more nervous this time or the first time. It had to be this time, this time there were two kids and I couldn't escape on tour.

A few days later Guigsy came over.

"This, this is your secret?" he exclaimed as he saw Jude in my arms. "Noel's gonna kill you."

"I'm gonna kill him if he thinks he's taking Paul away again." Kate threatened. "A week he had with his daughter last time."

She was still off with me because I hadn't told them, I still hadn't told all of them. She

"Well tour starts in September." Guis' shrugged.

It was never ending, even with the brothers splitting up the band cancelling things every two minutes because they couldn't get along, you'd think they'd pack it in after six years of working together and no sign of the dream coming to an end but they couldn't help it, they were literally cat and dog.

"I think you should start thinking about your future, both of you."

Oasis was our past, present and future but my family was my future now more than the band was and I was tired of missing out on their lives for tours.

I thought about it more and more, so did Guis' but we continued to do our jobs without Alan or the brothers suspecting anything.

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