Peter Pan~(Pans Never Ending)~

Untitled Part 1

Peters POV

I feel terrible about myself and for Bre, more for her. I lead her heart on, I really did think I was going to stay, but I didn't want to leave my home behind and grow up. But I do so regret it now. I wish I was with her and loving on her. After she left, I checked on her every night for the past two years. I didn't approach her because I knew she was hurting, and seeing her in the state was unbearable to see. It crushed me, killed me it seemed. My heart was broken just as much as hers. But..seeing her in that much pain. I couldn't handle it. So I let her be, but even on nights like this, I think of the "what ifs." What if I chose to stay with her, or save her from her broken heart, been the man she wanted? Would I be happy  or miserable. Well, enough is enough and I'm tired of being  a coward. I love her and she needs to know that.

I came to Bre's window and starred for a long while as I watched her sleep, she looked the same, but I knew she wasn't. She looks almost sick, like she hasn't slept in weeks and she looks frail. I snapped out of it and slid the window slowly and placed myself on the end of her bed.

I looked at her with remorse and started to cry a little bit in all honesty. I couldn't help it though, she didn't look good like she used to. I felt so bad and ashamed at myself, I wished it were me and not her. 

I crawled slowly towards her and started to rub her hand, as I gently kissed it, once I did, she woke up in a calmly manner.

"Peter?" She rubs her eyes.

"Yeah it's me." 

"what are you doing here?" she takes away her hand from me as she lights a candle.

"I came to visit you, I missed you Bre." 

"It's been two years....why come now?"

"Because I wanted to say I'm sorry and that I want you back in my life Bre."

"Peter I of course forgive you and I will always love you because you were my first love, but I can never trust myself and my heart with you again. You broke me to my limit, and even though I was hesitant at first with you, I trusted you and your words, you said you'd never leave me, but look at me now. You left for your selfish ways. I cant  let you be in my life anymore. I don't trust you. And I don't think I ever will. I mean two years Peter, two years you could have came and saved me from this heartbreak and saved me from my emotions that are drowning me.  Instead of saving me, you let me drown! Alicia has been the only one helping me, and my family." 

"But I-"

"LET ME FINISH! As you can tell, I'm not my usual self." Bre gets up and turns on the light. "I'm sick Peter! I am now underweight and cant hold anything down because it makes me sick. I blame you! You did this to me!" Bre starts to hysterically cry as she falls to the floor.

As I finally got to take a good look at Bre, I realize that she really is sick. Shes lost weigh and her face is sucked in while she has dark circles under her eyes. When she bends over, her spine pops out, and she was as pale as a ghost. I'm a monster, I did this to the love of my life, I want to help her in every way that I can and be there for her, and to get her healthy like she once was. Even if shes skin and bones, she is still beautiful in my eyes.

"God damn it Bre! Please don't cry! Please not that!" I continue to cry with her and hold her.

"Fuck Bre I love you." I softly kiss her forehead.

"Please don't touch me." Bre pushes me away and sets herself on the bed.

"Bre, I know I've fucked up, I mean clearly. Look what I've done to you. I feel like the lowest thing on earth, lower than dirt. I'm selfish, I know this. But my feelings for you are still true and always will be. I am in love with you, which may have no seemed like it because I wasnt there for you when you truley needed me, but I was there. I checked on you every night, to make sure you were okay-"

"If you checked on me every night like you say you did, why didn't you come to me then."

"Because Bre, I was a coward and didn't want to see you hurting, it hurts me seeing you this way." I continue as I set myself next to her.

"And even though you say you don't want me, I'm still going to be here now and make sure you're back to health." I hold Bre's face and wipe the tears.

"Pete. I want you to get out." Bre pulls her face away.

"But I-"

"GET OUT!" She screams.

I back up away from her.

"I don't love you anymore." she covers her face with the blanket and turns herself away from me.

As soon as she said those words, I felt a huge pain in my chest and I fell to the ground. I could feel the lightness in my eyes fade and I could feel myself change, I was full of hatred and wanted to harm Bre. When I felt this dark toxin go within my blood stream, I was afraid for Bre. So I popped out the window as fast as I could. But I turned around and smiled with a devious grinn. This toxin has taken over and I realized it.

"This isn't over. I will be back and you WILL be with me. One way or another Darling."