~5 years Later~
~Ash~
I sauntered up to the house where I was supposed to be meeting my new band mates. I was happy to be finally free of the porn world. I hated making those pornos. It was so degrading. I was nervous though. I've been nervous around guys since the night I was raped.
I readjusted the guitar on my back and knocked on the door. It took a minute but a man opened the door and smiled huge showing the little gap between his front teeth. His hair was held out of his eyes by a bandana and he was dressed pretty similar to me in skinnies and a t-shirt.
"Hey I'm Chris! " the guy grinned.
" I'm Ashley." I smiled back and took the aviators off my eyes. He smiled as I hooked them onto my shirt.
"Come in." he gestured and held the door open. I walked in and looked around at the basic home. I could hear a few voices mumbling in the room next to us.
He led me into the living room where there were three other guys and a girl.
"This is Jake, Jinxx, Sandra and Andy." He said.
I smiled at them," I'm Ashley. You're looking for a bassist? "
"Yeah we are." Andy said. I was kinda surprised at how deep his voice was. It sounded kinda familiar but I couldn't place it.
"We already replaced our drummer." Jinxx said and looked at Sandra accusing but smiled a little making sure she knew it was a joke.
"So you wanna play for us? " Jake asked.
I nodded and got my bass out and hooked it to the amp. I played Sex by Motley Crüe and sang along as I went. When I was done they all grinned at each other.
" Ashley Purdy I believe you've found yourself a band. " And smiled and stood up.
I smiled as I stood up and shook his hand." Thank you Mr. Biersack."
He laughed as the guys invited me for drinks and we talked about our previous jobs. I told them about my old band Stolen Hearts but didn't mention the porn. That was a story for another time.
"So you're used to the band thing." Andy asked as we walked into a bar.
I nodded and ordered a drink. "Yeah. I'm still friend's with all the guys but the band wasn't working out."
He nodded, "I know that feeling. I had to find all new band members when I came out here to LA."
"Where are you from? " I asked sipping my drink.
"Cincinnati, Ohio." he said.
I choked as memories came rushing back. I coughed as the jack burned my throat and my eyes watered.
" You okay? " he looked at me worried and I just nodded.
"Went down the wrong way." I coughed.
He nodded and smiled a little. "Sucks when that happens."
I nodded forcing a smile. I spent most of the night avoiding Andy. It's just a coincidence that he's from Cincinnati. He didn't rape me. He's a year younger than me and scrawny as hell. He couldn't have.
~Andy~
My jaw nearly dropped and I froze when Ashley walked in. I knew him. I'd seen him before. He didn't seem to recognize me though. I wasn't gonna complain though. He would just run off to the police. I would deserve it for what I did to him. It was a long time ago but I still did it. And no matter what I did now that wouldn't change.
I raped Ashley Purdy when I was 16. Maybe he didn't see my face. Or maybe he just doesn't recognize me.
