Ackermans [Levi x readers]

Cruel world.

Your POV

Its been a week since I grounded myself in my room full with memories with Isabel. My face was smudged with tears.  I cant make myself to move out from this room, or the bed. Losing Isabel is like losing everything. Isabel was the only family I had.
I heard knocks from the outside but I ignored them. I hadnt eat for one week already. Isabel would drag me to the mess hall for lunch. I cried loudly as I remembered her figure pulling me to the mess hall. I scratched my arms hard, they leave bruises and blood. I punched the wall making my knuckles bruises.

I heard someone knocks hard at the door. I keep screaming while rustling my hair hard. I heard a loud bang  and looked at the door. My eyes is blurry covered by tears. I cant recognise the people entered my room. I hide myself in between my legs, hiding myself from them.

I heard someone gasped after seeing my bloody arm. 

"Can you guys leave? I bet she dont want anyone to see her in this state." a masculine voice said as if he read my mind. I heard footstep slowly walk away and a door shut. I held up my head and saw a short man standing beside me with a stoic face. I wiped my tears to get a clear image.

"What the heck did you do ?"
Levi asked me in disbelief tone.
I just stared down to my bed ignoring his question as the answer is obvious.  He sighed.

He went to the cabinet where it placed opposite of my bed.
"Where's the first aid kit?" he asked me while searching for them in the drawer one by one.
Before I get to answer, he sat beside me with a box of first aid kit.

He grabbed my hand hard makes me groan in pain. "Can you be a little gently?" I said in my hoarse voice. I cleared my throat but its freaking sore. "Thats what you get for screaming like a psychopath." he said while rubbing alcohol on my wound.
I clenched my teeth holding the pain.

"You are so reckless." he said under his breath. I pouted and take a look at him. His eyes are puffy showing he also cried for our lost. I looked away as our eyes meet with each other.

"You hadn't eaten for a week, your body getting thinner." he said after he done bandaging my wounded arm. I took a glance at him and surprised as he offer his hand.  "It might hard to walk to mess hall with empty stomach. Let me give you a hand."

I looked at his hand first before reaching it out. He's right, I cant even stand properly. My body has become so weak. I sighed.
"Stupid me.." I said under my breath. "Yes , you are stupid." He said while slowly helping me moving forward. I rolled my eyes. If I have my strength now I would punch him in the face.

As we reach the mess hall, I saw everyone talking and having fun. Both of us walking toward a table fill with my squad. They all look depressed.They let out a dark atmosphere around them. My heart feel heavy to talk with them after I abandoned them for a week. As they saw me, their face all turn bright with a smile.

"Squad leader!" they all scream. My eyes widened as I saw their sudden change environment.
I abandoned these kids for a week? My eyes got teary. I looked down and let out a sigh. I looked up and smiled."Im sorry for making you guys worried." I said as Levi helping me sit down on a bench. Lisa who went to take my food came with a large portion on my tray. I gasped.

"This is too much, Lisa." I said looking at her in awe. She shaked her head. " No its not! at least for you who hasn't eat for a week." she put the tray and sat next to me. I clear my throat.

"After I have eaten, ill make you guys run 70 laps. No objection."
I said while munching the bread in my mouth.

"No wayy! thats unfair." they sighed. I laughed as I saw their reaction. They all surprised for a while before laughing with me.
Levi clicked his tongue and walk away after that. I didnt realise he already leave the room and enjoy talking with my squad. Laughing isnt a fact that I already accept Isabel's death. Hiding them in is the best option for now.