Cutters Dreams

                                                                                           LEFT

Look at me

And where I am

I know I'm different but here I stand

You'll never know who I am

For years I thought you were the one I needed

But know you can't even see the old me

I left behind

You made me lose her

Through days of pain and loss

You left me when I needed you the most

When I had no one

I thought I would have you

At least

But I was wrong

You left for so long

You left me waiting on you

So then one day

I just left

So one day you'll know exactly what it's like

To have no one

Just yourself to push you through life.

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                                                                           SCARLET TEARS

Scarlet tears dripping down

Each drop hitting the ground

Each drop sounds like a glass plate breaking

Each tear was my heart breaking

I can see the tears everywhere

But my face isn't wet

I can't feel a thing

My fate was set

You see

I faked a smile

And dried my eyes

I scratched my wrists

And bruised my thighs

The white pills were taken

The rope was tied

The gun was loaded..

I COMMITTED SUICIDE.

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                                                               I FELL

I fell

And I fell hard

Why did he have to be fake

He got me

He said he loved me

I loved him

Or so I thought

I was so naive

But what can I say

I want to be loved

I miss him

I want his hugs

I want to see his name pop up on my laptop