Fix You (Larry Stylinson AU)

Chapter 9

So I'm just going to pretend that I did not totally abandon this story for more than four months.

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I wake up to a warm, sleeping Louis cuddling into my arm, looking like he's holding on for dear life.

He looks so adorable like this.

I just lay here, adoring his beautiful face, revisiting the events of last night. The blood, the crying, the kissing, the affection.

The admittance of my love for my best friend..

I really hope that he doesn't wake up and change his mind about what was said and done last night. He said that he loves me too, that he wants to start a relationship with me..what if he regrets saying those things? Or what if he regrets our intimate moment we shared before we went to sleep? What if he only said all of these things because he was out of his mind? He wasn't exactly in the healthiest state when I found him.

"Harry.." He mumbles and shifts closer to me, tightening his grip on my arm, if possible.

"Louis.." I whisper, running my finger up and down the curve of his spine until his eyes flutter open. He has a look of confusion on his face, but it quickly softens into a smile as he wiggles up to meet me face to face and presses his lips to mine.

Suddenly, he stops dead in his tracks and jumps up, hiding his face in his hands, apologizing again and again.

"Lou, what's wrong? Why are you apologizing?" I sit up and rest my hand on his knee. "You don't have to be sorry, I want you to kiss me....oh..unless that's not what you want. In that case you don't have to..you can forget what I said last night then..I'm sorry if I made anything weird or made you feel forced to feel a certain way..I shouldn't ha-"

"So it wasn't a dream?" He interrupts my babbling.

"A dream?"

"Last night..that was all real? I thought it was a dream..."

"Yes darling, how-how does what happened make you feel? Is it still okay? What I said, what we did..and are you okay?"

"Yes, I'm okay, as okay as I can be considering..I just, I can't believe that was all real..it all seems too perfect..." He turns around to look at me.

"Do you still mean what you said? About..about you loving me too? It's okay if you don't." I'm afraid to hear his answer.

"Yes yes yes. A million times yes. Harry, I think I've loved you all along, I just never truly realized it until you kissed me." His cheeks turn a slight pink.

"I love you so much." I scoot closer to him and place a small kiss on his temple.

"And I love you."

"Louis..are you okay? You don't have to talk about it if you aren't ready. Just tell me the truth. Are you doing okay?" He doesn't like talking about things like this. I don't want to push him.

He stares down at the floor and forces out a barely audible "no".

Knowing just what he needs, I sit up against the headboard and pull him into my lap, wrapping my arms around him and holding him tight as he breaks down into sobs. 

Once Louis starts calming down from his break down, I cup his face in my hands and plant soft kisses to his lips, cheeks, nose, chin, neck...

"Harry.....pl-please don't ever leave me.." I barely hear him whisper as I attack his neck with kisses.

I remove myself from the soft skin of his neck and tilt his chin up with my fingers so that his eyes meet mine. "Louis listen to me. I will never leave you. I promise. You could never do anything to make me even think about leaving you."

"P-promise?" He sniffles.

I kiss his tear-stained cheeks once more. "Pinky promise." I hold out my pinky to him, like we used to do when we were younger.

He smiles and wraps his pinky around mine. "Pinky promise."

We drop our hands down, but our pinkies stay intertwined. I stare longingly into his eyes, they are so fucking beautiful. 

"Okay, I don't know about you, but I'm going to go get in the shower. I was sweating like crazy last night. You too." I say, breaking the silence, bringing my hand up to run my fingers through his matted hair. He gives me a soft smile and I kiss his temple softly once more before standing to my feet.

"I'll start the coffee maker and jump in the shower. Do you think you could look through the groceries that I bought last night and see what is still edible?I kind of forgot to put them up last night..Make a list of what we need and we can go by the grocery store, together?" I ask then leave the room to grab a towel and head for the shower after Louis nods his head yes to my question.

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I reach for the shampoo and try to think of dead puppies and old naked ladies to try and get rid of this painfully hard boner. Yeah..it's not helping. I'm gonna have to take care of this manually.

Images of louis' mouth on me fills my mind as I grab my length and slowly pump. My hand moves quicker as the image of him riding me and moaning my names appears in my mind, and once I think of him in lace underwear, giving me a show, I'm gone.

I grunt and throw my head back as my orgasm rips through me and my load releases onto the shower curtain.

God, I'm gonna need to talk to him about what he is comfortable with doing with me..I don't know how much longer I can handle being around him without being able to act on my fantasies that I've been dreaming about for the past four years.. But of course, Louis is a virgin, and has had little to no sexual experience. Well, now that I think about it, I don't think he has had any sexual experiences.

I intend to change that.

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Louis' POV

My heart and mind are still racing from this morning, and last night. I can hardly believe that Harry, or anybody, could love me. I feel so bubbly and happy, a feeling that I haven't felt in quite a long time. I just hope that this isn't just a big joke and that he's going to come in here and laugh at me. I cringe and try and push the thought to the back of my mind.

After completing the task that Harry had asked me to do, I walk into my bedroom and dig through a box of clothes in search of an outfit for today. I finally come across a clean pair of boxers and skinny jeans along with a band tee. Sleeping With Sirens. One of my favorite bands.

I tug down my boxers and my breath catches in my throat as I catch the sight of my thighs. There's what seems like hundreds of angry red marks covering my skin. I cant believe that I did this to myself. What was I thinking? I'm so stupid. These are going to scar and turn even more ugly and no one will ever want to look at me. Harry will probably leave me when he sees my skin.

A single tear rolls down my cheek as the dark thoughts in my mind take over me.

Then, the door opens and harry walks in. He gasps as I rush to cover my self.

"Don't look at me!" I nearly scream at him.

"I-I'm sorry Lou I didn't think that you wo-'

"Just go!" I burst into tears as he shuts the door, leaving me alone in the dark with my thoughts.

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