Broken Wings } TaeGi

broken 1

General Warnings; Depression, Self-Harm, Hints of Abuse

Broken 1

Yoongi POV

Again. Again it was one of those  fucking days. A day on which I wished I would have enough strength to just end all of that endless suffering.

I only listened to the ticking of the clock that was placed on the glass table inmid of the room, circled with white walls. Deep in thoughts, I just stared down on my hands, that rested on my thighs, grabbing the fabric of my trousers tightly.

Why wouldn't he say a thing? He was my psychologist. He couldn't expect me, his patient to continue our conversation. I felt how his dark eyes kept staring at me, while my heart was jumping and racing nervously. I hated realizing people were intensely staring at me. Especially people, who were judging me, just like Mr. Kim did right that moment.

I took a deep breathe. I couldn't wait for that nagging counseling time to end for today. My dark thoughts and the voices in my head kept haunting me and made my head spinning like crazy. I couldn't wait to finally leave this sticky room. As I finally got to hear his voice, an undefinated smile creeped itself on my lips.

"Our time is over for today. Don't forget to continue writing your diary about your feelings and thoughts. Let's meet each other next wednesday."

I came to stand on my feet faster than I could control without looking up. "I will. Goodbye." I answered, briefly, not shaking the hand he stretched out towards me. I only bowed my head a little, just to leave the room with fast steps one moment after.

The only thing that made me almost run towards my house was him. Taehyung. A boy I have been chatting with since some weeks. I never really liked communities or social media stuff, but my therapist told me I shall try communicating via internet. He assumed I shall try writing with people, if talking to people in real life was too difficult for me.

Taehyung also was like - the only reason that kept me alive at the moment. But I shook my head to throw away that thought. I should head towards home quickly, before my daddy would come home.

I couldn't stand meeting him today. [...]

As soon as I unlocked the door and got rid of my coat, shoes and scarf, I ran up into the bathroom, washing my hands roughly with a lot more of soap than I actually needed, just to run of to my room fastly, locking my door, right after I quickly pushed the button to switch on my - rather old - computer.

I logged in to that only website I have ever registered to and felt the way my heart was fluttering. I was sure - really sure that he already was online. He was always telling me he was waiting for me then. Of course I didn't believe him. He was popular. He - for sure - had a lot of other people to talk to. And still, his words always work to make me feel a little special.

I licked my dry lips, placed my fingers onto the keyboard as soon as I sent a private chat request to him and waited, only a view moments, until his message appeared on my screen.

Taelien: Yooongi omg. Finally. (^3^)Y

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This was chapter one for now. I just started writing randomly on my phone because my feelings for Taegi are currently overwhelming me. ;;;;;; Next chapter will be better. Thanks for reading. >^<