Broken Wings } TaeGi

broken 6

Yoongi POV:

Again I felt so fucking empty. Again I thought of selfharm. Of the moist feeling running in small streams down my skin. Thinking of death. Of how it would be. My only imagination has always been black.

Just like - nothing. Being surrounded by darkness. Not existing anymore. Emptiness. No feelings anymore. Simply. Nothing at all.

Sounded like paradise to me.

Still. The risk of me not making it again, of only trying suicide again, but still being alive - getting back in such a freaking instituition.

I couldn't.

And I still had Taehyung...

I mean - I trusted him. He was the only one I could trust. The only reason for me to keep breathing.

A tear was running down my cheek, as I stared at the screen of my computer, reading the line Taelien currently is offline over and over again. He hasn't been online since around 28 hours.

28 hours without texting with him and all I could think about was giving up.

More and more tears started running down my face. Damn - when was the last time I cried? The last time I really cried seemed endlessly ago. But those 28 hours Taehyung hasn't been online felt even more endless.

I needed a sign of life of him. I needed his words, his bitter- sweet lies that kept motivating me everytime he was writing with me.

Taehyung...

My inside screamed. His name. A hundred times. I didn't move. I was just sitting here, staring blankly at the screen right in front of me.

Taehyung... Taehyung... Help me.

As if I could ever beg him for help. I never would ask him to comfort me. I never would tell him all about me and my mentally fucking broken self. I was too scared of him leaving me. Of losing him as my one and only friend. I was afraid he would hate me. That I'd be too pressing. That I'd corner him way too much.

I wiped my tears with the lower part of the sleeve of my hoodie. I stopped crying.

And all of sudden the words on the screen changed. A quiet beeping sound made me realize he finally was here.

Taelien: Yoooongibae! You are here omg I missed U so much! I am sorry I had some work to do, omg but I couldn't concentrate aldkd cause I constantly had to think of you ;^^^;

And his words made me smile. Instantly. Like magic. To me he was like a wizard of a beautiful fairytale. Or probably like the prince saving me without even knowing.