Until we meet again (sequel to You said you loved me..)

I'm the girl you lost

Tuseday 18.30

I stood infront of my hallway mirror once again, going on a date with him. It was a long time ago, it felt like I was 16 again and was waiting for the most popular guy in my school to pick me up for our date.

It was a weird feeling but I was very excited for it. I haven't dated anyone since I broke up with my ex Louis Tomlinson. And yes I dated him at the same time as Kendall dated Harry Styles and at the same time Gigi dated Zayn it was pretty fun that we all dated one of the guys from One Direction. But I broke up with Louis about 3 weeks after they split. So that was in the beginning of 2016.

Right now I was wearing beige shorts, a white croptop with an opening above my boobs, a light grey cap, beige shoes and I put my hair up with a bobby pin so it looked a lot shorter (the pic)

I walked out to my car and drove down to the local bar. I parked my car and walked in.

- Hi! I said when I stepped in, how are you Nicki?
- I'm good, you? she said not looking up from the counter.
- Great I'm actually going on a date so I can't talk but I'll see you soon.
- Yeah I will probably see you when you order  your drinks. She said and winked
- ha...Yeah I said and smiled back as I turned bright red of embarrasment.
- You look hot, she will think you look good.
- She? I asked, sorry but I'm not a lesbian, i'm going on a date with a guy named Cameron?
- oh? But I read on Tmz news that there were photos of you and that... What is her name, Caroline? No, Candy? No wait...
- Cara?!
-yes Cara Delevingne! That's her! it was photos of you and her kissing in her apartment building, so I thought that you guys were together, but I guess not.

Fuck how did the paparazzis get into her apartment I have to talk to her and... Fuck Cameron's here I have to deal with this after the date.

- Hi! He said and hugged me. You have a new hair style?
- Yeah! I said back and smiled, do you like it?
- Yeah it's really pretty!
-thanks!
We sat down by the bar and started to talk
- What do you want to drink? He asked
- Surprise me! I said and smiled
- Ha, sure.

We talked and drank for about 1,5 hour but then I decided to tell him about me, the real me.
- Cameron?
- Yeah?
- I have to tell you something I said and looked seriously into his eyes.
- You can tell me everything Amber.

Amber, Amber, Amber, Amber. It echoed through my head.

- My name is not Amber Hill. I started. My real name is....
- Your real name is?
- It's Lillith Parker.
- What? Lillith Parker?
- I'm "the" Lillith Parker. You know the one that you dated 2,5 years ago the one you asked if you could kiss under the street light outside my house. The one you bullied, the one you told deserved being spit and hit in the school bathroom. I'm the girl who faked her own death to teach you a lesson. I'm the girl who ran into the train tunnel to make a death video. I'm the girl who got Julia Clarke killed. I'm the girl you told you loved and then ran away on Julia's funeral, I'm the girl who never returned to Ohio I'm the girl who made everyone feel like shit. I'm the girl who left her best friend behind I'm the girl who's boyfriend cheated on her with her worst enemy i'm the girl who left you at a party, I'm the girl you had a secret crush on for months. I'm the girl who destroyed Julia, I'm the girl who came over to your house to help you study but you kissed her, I'm the girl who ran away to L.A to be successful and managed to. I'm the girl you fell inlove with I'm the girl you lost. I'm that girl.

The silence that came after I told him everything was painful. He didn't say anything for many seconds but he then finally broke the silence.

- I've missed you so much Lillith, you have no idea. He said and hugged me hard he then started to cry, I let go of him and grabbed his cheek and wiped of a tear with a napkin.

- Cameron. I loved you so much, I am so sorry for leaving you. I don't know how you had it after I left but I'd like to hear about everything that happend after I did.

-  Ok, I'm going to tell you everything that happend after you're disappearance. So sit back and relaxe. He said and a smile finally appeard on his lips.