Why am I even here?
To ruin everything I touch
To be so selfish and terrible and never do anything right?
Why am I still here?
I break their hearts with my words
Laced with spite and fire
Only to be burned in the end?
Why am I alive?
Even though I want to die everyday
For hurting them constantly
And wanting to inflict it on myself?
Why am I here?
Tell me why I only realize that I've done something wrong
When I'm crying all alone, wishing I could take it back?
Why can't I be good?
Even the right things turn wrong because of me
And nothing, NOTHING is ever okay
Why don't I just go?
They don't need me here
They don't need useless or worthless or any more burdens I'll bring
Why don't you leave me?
Your forgiveness and love is so smothering
I don't deserve it, I don't deserve anything
And Your mercy might save me from eternal life but life here isn't going to change because I'm still asking
Why?
