The Little Pepper

chapter 4 family ties

( pov Anthony) She hate me for sure she did not want talk to me she did not want be around fine but was fine me and flea had be freind for a long time and no this was not fine what there to hate about I mean I thought when we had that talk I told alot things not alot people know about me  I  thought I get thought to  her and we be friend or least she would hate now she can't even look at me . ( pov Anthony) I guess maybe I should just leave as it is I mean so I really need her to like no not really I mean as along as we stay out of each other's way this whole time we be good which will be hard to do I mean we are living in the same bus but I have deal with plus dose seem like flea want me any where close to his sister I don't know what he think I do to her but I would hurt her. ( pov Anthony)  and I don't if he think I like her which I don't she seem like okay girl she way to young for I never see one of flea family members like that ( pov flea) So Anthony come to me and told that will he said he leave you alone he understands that your going thought something and that your not comfuble around him so he said he try his best not to be around you so much I hope that helps . ( pov Blue ) Yeah it will thank you it not him really I don't think it is it just ( pov flea) you don't have to explain yourself I get we all do we have not was had the easy life and I know thinks chanced alot when you know but now it time for you to live a new and happy life with me as a family and with my new family to . ( pov blue) You know at I was really pissed that you left me alone and you want on the road and that half of the reason why did all the bad things I did I guess I did not know how to deal with been alone so I thought this was the right way to deal with it but I was so wrong so in way I am happy that I called that night .

( pov blue) You saved from end up even worst in my life and for that I am thankfully  ( pov flea) will anytime that what big brothers or for right now tierd so I am going to go get some rest I talk you when we get there ( pov Blue ) okay good night brother and flea ( pov flea) yeah ( pov Blue ) I love you ( pov flea ) I love you to blue night  ( pov Blue ) and just like that I was alone and board to I guess all the guys where sleep and way it good but bad I did not know what to do with my self . ( pov Blue ) I started to mess around on phone to found something to do that when he come in I saw him at the core of my eyes but I did not make eyes contact with him I did not want to I was getting that werid feel again why could he just go way or better way could this feeling go way I tried my best to ignore him been there and the feeling but he was not going any where.  ( pov Blue ) He seat down to what seem like he was eating something and I just kept trying to keep my eyes on my phone ( pov Anthony) really was it that bad it look like I mad her un easy like she was scared of me or something she would not look at even if I know she wanted to I get to go back to my bed when she finally said something . ( pov Blue ) I don't hate you by the way I don't even know why I said it just come out like nothing ( pov Anthony) I turned around to look at her ( pov blue ) I don't hate it just I dealing with appt and will I don't just know I don't hate it ( pov Anthony ) and I don't hate and you don't have to tell me and more I understand ( pov blue) for the while that me Anthony eyes where in contact I could move it felt like I was freezers or something . ( pov Blue ) Finally he want on his way and good he did because who knows what would happend he just kept standed there I take a deep breath why was this all so much for really it just guy or this was man maybe that it I never felt this way about guy and I did not know how to deal with it and maybe I did not want deal with it to .

( pov Blue ) that night as I slept I had dream about Anthony in the dream we where make out out no where and it felt so really but yet felt bad and good I did not know how deal with it I mean this was bad I was dreaming about this guy I don't even really know him he was man and was a young adult why was this happen to me okay maybe he was not that older then but still it was werid to think of him and have dreams of him . ( pov Blue ) I awake myself up to stop from the dream and to get it all out of my head i awake up all sweated and my heart beating fast I get up to go to the bathroom right way I close the door and locked so no one could come in and I wet my face what was going on with me was even dream about this guy more . ( pov Blue ) That when there when there was a knock on the door ( pov flea) hey blue it me flea Are you okay in there ( pov blue) I am fine flea just getting ready for the day that all ( pov flea) okay just making sure I made some break  fast if you want eat I be waiting for you ( pov Blue ) okay I be out in bit ( pov Blue ) I could tell him the trust that I was not only thing about his friend that was way older then me . ( pov Blue ) Also having very not so good dreams He like to know about so I just have to keep found a way to lie to him I take a deep breath and try to make seem like I was fine when I was really not fine I did not know what to do with these feels I have should I acted on them  or should I tryed to push them back in my mind . ( pov Blue ) I take my seat next to flea and stared to eat my food and I was fine that when I saw it was Anthony and again with no shirt on why dose this guy not wear clothes or own any clothes it hard enough for me to think about him and dream about him then he come out just like this I quickly get up with out saying anything and want to my buck bed .

( pov flea) Where you going blue you did not even eat most of your food ( pov Anthony) did I do something ( pov flea) I don't know I don't think so don't worried about I go see what up with her as he get up and made his way to blue ( pov Anthony) man for girl dose hate she was seen to leavn when I am around .  ( pov flea ) Hey I bring you the rest of your breakfast you should eat as he hand it to her ( pov blue ) thank you but I am good I just feeling a little sick that all I think I just need to lay down and rest that ( pov flea) okay I understand okay I let be then I come and check out on you in little bit you rest . ( pov Anthony) So she okay ( pov flea) yeah think so she just feeling little sick that all she just need to rest ( pov Anthony) Oh will that good I just hope it nothing I did she not really a big fan of me as you see for yourself ( pov flea) dude it not you all she just had allot to deal with even more getting use to all of this . ( pov flea) You know life on the road me and you are use to it but not her but I could leave her back home I don't even know what would have happend to her she call that night and if I did not drives to bring her with me and I am very glade I did ( pov Anthony) listen man I am here for you anything you need . (Pov blue ) Maybe I could play off this whole sick thing so he won't ask some many questions and he won't wonder why I am acted so werid yeah that what I do ( pov Anthony) hey I know you won't nothing to do with but this was made feel better I made me self I just leave it here for you ( pov Blue ) thank you is all I said it all I could really say for some reason I can't talk when I am around Anthony .

( pov Blue ) The food did smell good and I did not really way a good breakfast so I decided to eat it after I was done I get and want to put the dirt soup bowl way can I talk to you Anthony he was super as I was at what I just said he turned around right way but flea did to we all looked at each other then I said again I like to talk to you alone Anthony please this time I said little louder . ( pov Anthony) Yeah sure we can talk ( pov Blue )  as he walked toward me and past for he did not have such happy face but I did not care I need to let what felt before it all want every where and this was the whole way we both take a seat on my bed he stuck out his head and for the first time before we looked at each other . ( pov Anthony ) So you want to talk to me ( pov Blue ) so this the deal I don't hate you not at all actually will I really don't know what it is but I been think about you alot and in a will ( pov Anthony) Oh oh wow ( pov Blue ) yeah I said the same thing and I know ( pov Anthony) yeah no no we can't I mean you pretty girl you are but I am so older then and plus I don't see that way at all . ( pov Anthony) Not to say if I did which I would not at all flea would kill me no just no I sorry ( pov Blue ) I know and I am going to hide this feel not acted on them just thought I let you know so would think the reason I kept ranning way from you because  of this so we cool we can be freind . ( pov Anthony) Of couser we can for sure and blue ( pov Blue ) yeah ( pov Anthony) let just keep this talk between you and me I don't think flea need to know what you just told me ( pov Blue) yeah he freak out for sure if he know I had some type of feels for you your are we won't tell him and Anthony can I ask for one thing .

( pov Anthony) yeah sure what is it ( pov Blue ) maybe it be good you wear more shirts will I am around dose really help me you are not wearing one ( pov Anthony) okay I will do that for sure he laughed little as he said it and then walked way ( pov flea) hey your back what was that all about with my sister ( pov Anthony) nothing where freinds now if that okay with you .