Illicit Affair

18.

"Adele" he sighed.

"No Simon. This is so wrong" I said, covering myself.

"You're right" he sighed again, pulling on his clothes.

"I'm really sorry" i said, watching him.

"You have nothing to be sorry for" he smiled, taking my chin.

"You're an amazing guy Simon and im sorry you've gotten into this" I said, diverting my gaze from his.

"I love you Adele" he whispered.

I let out a breathy laugh, "you don't love me Simon. You love the idea of having a 'mistress' I was just stupid enough to go along with it."

"You don't see it" he said, shaking his head.

"See what? Simon, you are with Daisy. You are not willing to leave her. Not that I blame you." I sighed, "you're not guaranteed a life with me, you're not guaranteed love. Atleast with her you know you'll get something"

"Adele, if you want me to leave her, i will." He said, taking my hand.

"I dont want that Simon. It's not about what I want anyway. This is the best thing to do for you and Daisy." He looked into my eyes.

"I'll see you around Laurie" he said, his eyes glazed over.

***

That was the last time I've seen Simon. Laura and I have sorted things out. Derek and I are still going strong i suppose.

It's been months since then, but not a day goes by where I don't think of him.

It's made me realise something so wrong. The feelings i had for him needed to be pushed out.

"Babe, are you ready?" Derek asked.

"Yeah, let's go" i smiled, heading out the door.

We were heading to New York to meet Derek's parents. I honestly wasn't nervous. I didn't care if they liked me or not, which sounds horrible, but I knew we wouldn't last.

"They're going to love you, i know it" he grinned, putting the suitcases into the back.

"Lets hope" I smiled back, shutting the car door.

A/N Lol so shit. Sorry.

My friends are being asses and ganging up on my other friend so I'm like in bitch mode. Wow, I feel like such a bitch, probably cause I am. But I'm sorry, I'm not letting my friend sit there and take shit from another 'friend' hell to the fucking no.

This shit happened at 1am. It is now 3:12am and im still fucking pissed off. What a bitch btw. I could go off on her ass. Shes lucky I never.

Okay, sorry.

I'm eating all the food i wasnt able to get earlier lol. How i love being fat.

Enjoy x