Dumbledore's Lover

Minerva Forgive me......

I woke up the next morning to sun filtering down on me. I swung my legs off my bed and headed for the window. There were clouds flitting over the sun casting a bit of a gloom on the grounds below. Across over by the lake there was an eerie fog creeping off its black watery depths. I always had dreams about the lake. Although I never went in it. I could imagine and dream about what wonders or horrors might lurk underneath. Once I swore I had seen an otherworldly looking face staring at me from the dock. When I had dared to lean over I had nearly fallen in at the sudden abruptness of the face swirling back into the depths below and flashed of shimmery light of scales. I took it upon myself later that day to search the library and found a book on mermaids. I was shocked and mesmerized as I wondered how they had come to the lake in the first place. Since then I had dreamed of  them wondering and learning all I could about them.

I shook my head to escape my memories. I had to find Minerva and find out what I had done wrong and apologize.

I headed down to our common room it was still a little early so I sat myself on a couch and just stared into the fire. I watched it swirl and crackle as my eyes began to get heavy from my dreams that were beckoning me. Suddenly in the darkness behind my eyes I had the feeling someone was watching me. I jolted up and in the process knocked over my brother.

"Bloody hell, Albus has you so jumpy?"

"Nothing. Hey don't sneak up on me like that. Hey have you seen Minerva?"

"She's gone off to breakfast already. That's why I came over I was surprised to see you hadn't joined her." I started walking to the portrait hole to hear my brother shouting back at me. "Oi did you hear that Durmstrang and Beauxbatons is arriving today?"

I was already out the portrait hole where he finished. I swiftly walked to the Great Hall hoping to find Minerva at the Gryffindor table but she wasn't there. I sat down and had some eggs, bacon, and toast. As I absently chewed on my crust racking my mind at where Minerva might be. I finished and got up passing by the room they had placed the Goblet of Fire in. I paused looking in the room that was glowing from the blue fire that was swirling in the goblet. I never was much to make too much attention to myself, but the though of a boring year before me was to much. I strolled into the room walking up to the cup and pulled out a scrap of parchment and scribbled my name on it. I never expected to be picked but if I was maybe some excitement would come out of it. I tossed my name in and headed for the library hoping maybe Minerva was studying before Herbology.

I stepped in the smell of the old books filling my nose intermingled with the dusk that floated through the air. A smile spread across my face as I saw a figure pouring over a book her mahogany hair cascading down her back glinting in the sunlight she was reading under.

"Minerva I've been looking for you why didn't you wake me to go to breakfast?" I watched as her expression hardened into her book.

"I didn't see you." she explained nonchalantly as if it was no big deal we ate together.

"Minerva. What did I do?"

"Nothing." her voice didn't change its tone at all as she turned the page not looking up to me.

"Minerva something must be wrong." I reached over and put my hand on her book to disrupt her reading. "Maybe i was a little out of line trying to pants a Hufflepuff but I've been so bored." She still wouldn't look up at me. "Minerva please." I felt my voice break what had I done to my friend. She looked at me her scowl softening just a little.

"Do you like her?" My jaw dropped. Who could she be talking about I didn't remember looking at any girls lately. I looked at her making sure the confusion was etched on my face. She cleared her throat. "Your not like all the boys Albus, you don't fawn openly over girls. I know this but your display on that Hufflepuff.." she sighed and her voice dropped as if she was struggling not to cry. "You had to have done it for more than boredom's sake. You like Lovani don't you?" I could see that her eyes were sparkling with tears trying to break from her eyes.

"Lovani? Minerva really do you really think I'd fancy her she's to....." I couldn't think of the right word to use. Minerva stared straight at me as if searching me.

"To what?" Her voice was now soft towards me.

"She's our Professor. Minerva I don't like her honest. I was bored and I didn't honestly think that using that spell on his pants would work." I smirked at her. She seemed a little easier, but it killed me to know the real reason I didn't fawn over Lovani like the rest of the boys. It killed me to know Minerva still didn't understand. I just didn't like girls. I didn't fancy anyone really. My brother always said I was strange because besides our mother and sister I never really talked or hung around girls, until Minerva of course. No one knew or caught on to what I really took interest in I didn't understand it myself, but I soon would. "Minerva are we still friends? Can you forgive me?" I watched her think for a second and knew she was pondering the friends part.

"I forgive you and of course were still friends." She whipped out the friends part maybe just to appease me. She gave me a warm smile and reached out and touched my hand. I pulled away but not wanting to hurt her again I stood up and motioned to the door.

"Shall we head to class." She looked at me inquisitively but didn't push.

"We shall."

I took her book for her and returned it to the shelves again without thinking. As I turned around I saw her beaming at me with a huge smile. Realizing my mistake I walked forward to have her jog up behind me talking gleefully about what we might learn in Herbology today. I couldn't hear her though. No not because I was dreaming but because my voice inside my head was silently pleading. Minerva Please Forgive Me........

AUTHOR NOTE: I hope your enjoying im trying to keep the characters as geniune to themselves as possible some feedback on how I'm doing would be nice. Let me know how your  enjoying the book and fanning is always appreciated thanks :D So I have a question maybe its obvious what do you think he wants forgiveness from? Can't wait to hear from you I really hope I do.